Now,I'm suffering from a high level of anxiety about HIV,as I have always been too paranoid about hiv.
I'm a 20 years old gay male.A few weeks ago,I had unprotected oral sex with a stranger,whom I knew from online.I did ask his HIV status and his words were,he was safer than bottle water.I didnt have any cuts in my month(at least that was how I felt).I feel so stupid and regret after performing unprotected oral sex.I seldom do oral sex because I know my self exactly-I'm always too paranoid about HIV issue.I know my chances are low but I just can't ease my mind and I'm thinking about "what if" all the time.I thinking about my parents,my school and my friends,it's just driving me crazy right now.I don't know how I am supposed to face them if I'm positive.
Also,after my last time HIV test,I have had a few sexual encounters.Everytime,I wore condom.But I'm still worring."What if the body fluids contacted some cuts of body",such thoughts like that always appear in my mind.Even kissing makes me think all the time if I have contracted to HIV.
So,my question is do you think I need an HIV test.(I remember the last time I got tested,I was extremely anxious the whole day.)And how can I ease my mind?How can I be not so paranoid about HIV.