Tired and Desperate

[frightenedandconfused]

I have been diagnosed with GAD,PTSD, GAD and as of last week OCD as well. I am so tired. All i do is cry. I tell myself in the mirror i hate myself and have even slapped myself across the face before. My mother was my abuser and I suffered child sexual abuse. I look like her and this bothers me tremedously. What do I do. I need some relief now, My newest fear is if i'm lesbian and how i will loose y husband and our house that we are building. I tell myself bad things like he will leave me, and i will loose him forever and he will be disappinted in me. I have all these thoughts and images that just come out of nowhere and i'm like "is that what I think?-that doesn't seem like me. What do i do?

[plomeli]

I'm sorry that you have all these issues to deal with, try and seek professional help so that you can enjoy your life. You went through many traumatic things and deserve to live a good life. You already went through so much, you have to love yourself it all starts from there, you are worthy and deserving of it. Once you get the help you need you will be able to figure so many things out and will realize that its not fair for you to still be putting yourself through so much pain. My psychologist told me that I have to tell myself often "I've already been through enough." Good luck, hope you feel better soon.

[Devonlee]

Wow sounds like you have a lot to deal with. I think first thing is you definitly need a pychiatrist and or therapist. You have a lot on your plate and you need professional help and some meds. All these questions need to be dealt with a Drs help. I hope the best for you and hope you get the help u need.