GREAT DAY TODAY!!! =)

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Just wanted you all to know, if you have read my lasts posts. (I've posted quite a few, sorry. lol.) To sum it up 27, male, been OBSESSING over a throat clicking noise when I swallow for the past week or more (and dry mouth).. and the fear I've been having which has been causing LOTS of anxiety is that I could not stop thinking/obsessing about my throat everytime I swallowed and felt this little clicking sensation in my adams apple area. I just couldnt STOP thinking about it, and it was literally driving me insane, til one point I actually thought I was going crazy b/c it was all I could think about, and it was giving me BAD BAD BAD anxiety symptoms (fear, impending doom, fear of my thoughts taking control, trembling, etc. etc.)... but that's anxiety at its best, and As a health anxiety freak, we tend to pay closer attention to our bodies, and things that are normally there/happen, that we usually ignore when feeling good, then we get a health anxiety episode, we find and search for these little imperfections and freak out about them.

Well, today is day 6 on Lexapro 10mg, and this morning as a little rough anxiety wise, but the rest of the day and evening was AMAZING. My mood went from being anxious/depressed to just feeling AWESOME.

At this time I'm not afraid of my throat clicking sensation when swallowing anymore. For some reason today I just accepted it, and just didn't worry about it. And for the first time in about a month, this is the first day where I actually could focus on other things and enjoy my day.

My appetite is still not back, but I know that will come back once the Lexapro does it's thing more. Appetite loss and dry mouth is a very common symptom of anxiety I know. Also dry mouth can also be from these Allergies and ragweed in the air right now. But I ate REALLY good today, even without being hungry. Makes me feel better that atleast I'm eating, and I just KNOW my appetite will come back.

Do you guys think that this is the Lexapro doing it's job for me? Helping the chemicals in my brain even out, and make me not so focused and worried on my throat click deal?

Do antidepressants actually help with negative thinking and irrational fear? If, so I'm a firm believer in this stuff, and this time around I'm STAYING on Lexapro for atleast 6 months or more! I think that is what my mistake has been in the past. I'll go on it, and once I start feeling better, I'll taper off and think I can handle the next one...

and I will continue to see a therapist for quite some time too help for any future anxiety/depression/hypochondria spells. Gotta re-program my brain to STOP these triggers before they start being in control, and not me.

I think I'm gonna go lay down now, and watch the movie "What About Bob" lol. Help me laugh at myself a bit... b/c my Dr. is out of the country for 2 months, and I have been joking today to my wife that I should be like Bob (Bill Murray) in that movie and go track down my Dr. while hes on vacation. hahaha.

So glad to feel so much better today/tonight.

Hope I gave alot of you guys some hope again! Things will get better guys! We will have our days, our trials and tribulations... but don't be afraid to get some help if you need it, that is the key! I'm learning I've trained (subconsciously) my brain to "think the worst" when a little small health issue comes. Example, A canker sore in my mouth that may last for 4 days or so, my brain will think "could it be the cancer?" and just like that... DOWNWARD SPIRAL of fear, irrational thoughts, negative thoughts, anxiety, panic... etc. etc.

So I'm going to reprogram this puppy with therapy and some Lexapro. =) and get on with my life.

Thank you all for the encouragement.

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ANOTHER EXCELLENT DAY TODAY!!! WHOOHOO! Appetite is starting to come back more too. =)

[MMahon]

Great news!  Glad your 'turning the corner'.  
Remember you have to think of anxiety disorder just like you do any other illness.  When you have had a couple of 'bouts' you have to recognize that the chances are quite high you'll have them again so you need to be diligentt.  Like diabetics need insulin, you too may need to be on medication long term so you are not overtaken by it again.  Sure you can stop and maybe be alright for a period, but is it worth going thru what you go thru with it over and over?  Do some diabetics not take their insulin for whatever reason?  Yes some do and they can pay a serious price for it.  Remember anxiety takes a serious toll on the body and over the long haul it can shorten your life significantly. Take care of yourself, if not for you, for your wife and children.  

[mama23babies]

So good to hear good new from you. I had read your latest posts and know that you were struggling. I'm glad things are getting better for you. Also thanks for the encourgement. I wish I could tolerate the AD's,but at this point they make me crazier. Maybe I will get brave and try again!  Good luck to you!

[MONICA402]

Hi,This is monica again and i'm so glad to see you are feelin better.I'm excited to see the lexapro is working.I just decided to take my first pill today.I really don't feel to anxious yet.But,i can already feel myself not wanting to eat.I feel allittle dizzy nothing major.I'm also going to taper off after six months.I don't wanna be on this forever eigther.So keep me posted.Oh and how are u sleeping?Do u still have to take the adavan?