confused 19 year old.

[AnxietyGirl2012]

I also suffer from axiety, last night i began to feel dizzy and my legs felt weak like if i stood up my legs would give way, although they didnt it was still very scary...a symptom i was experiencing for the first time therefor i was even more anxious. I normally get a really hot face, freezing cold toe's a rushed heart beat, feel really out of it and my head feels so full with thoughts (like my mind is going 100 miles an hour) usually i manage to control and calm myself down with deep slow breath's but today i cant shake the dizzy feeling. I have only had anxiety for a little over a month so i am still trying to wrap my head around things, there has been alot of tears and questioning whether i will actually be okay or if i can over-come this. It's hard as i often sit and think how not so long ago i was pefectly fine, i wasn't afraid to leave my house or to be alone, i enjoyed going out now i dread it.

It's all very confusing, i just want to feel myself again.

[AnxietyGirl2012]

Arrrh me too! i thought maybe they have miss diagnosed or something until everyday i wake up and soon realized im actually okay.

I just got sick of feeling like **** and decided well if i am going to have an attack it's not gunna matter where iam it's going to happen regardless so stuff it i am just going to go out!

Exactly, it's just frustrating because deep down i know i am fine.
Same and they say the worst thing to do when you feel an attack coming on is to say to youself "Please, not again" because it's like you letting it in.
Still it's hard to ignore the feelings and not say it.

That's right, will will eventually get there, and this will all become a distant memory.

[onedayillbfine]

O i knowi used to cry myself to sleep because i felt no one in the world knew what was going on with me and the doctors were just saying it was anxiety to calm me down and shut me up :( i felt so lost and scared and i to avoided everything that made me feel this way just like you. i have great days where i forget i have anxiety and days i wish the world would end because i hate the feeling but again i fight through it because i have to. I think now its more annoying than anything because i know im fine and as soon as my body panics im like really again?... so im getting there and you will to :)

[AnxietyGirl2012]

Im the same, i fear every little pain or discomfort. :( it's hard to tell yourself you'll be okay. I also get heartburn or my heart will skip a beat and there i go again worrying it's something more, i have never experienced anything so scary. Im trying to fight it, some days are better than others i went through a stage where i didnt leave the house in fear of having an attack while out i didnt want anyone to see me like this, i didnt want them to judge me or see me differently. Then last week i pushed myself to go to work and go visit family forcing myself to talk to them and i found talking with my loved one's about what im going through comforting, they have been really supportive which is good. Guess it's all about taking things one step at a time. Thanks :) it's nice to know there are people who know exactly what im going through.

[onedayillbfine]

I feel your pain ,I used to love life and everything it had to offer now im afraid of everything im scared any little "abnormal" pain is a sign of death heading my way.its scary and ive felt exactly how you felt .it is scary and its going to be tough but fight with all you have and i promise things will slowly get better. i still suffer but everyday i fight to be myself and it hasnt always worked but i see a light at the end of this long dark tunnel. i come on here alot because i get comfort in knowing that someone else is going through the exact same thing and i am not alone best of luck and if you ever need a friend im here :)