finding it hard to rationalise today

[sallyann27]

awh where to begin. some days are ok some days are bad. this one is bad. finding it hard to breathe because i have inflamed muscles between my ribs but i think something else must be wrong. i feel so nauseous and tired that i can't think what else is going on. trying not to freak out but every night i go to bed and like awake for hours waiting to throw up but it never comes. its like a constant lump in my throat and lower down. what is wrong with me? just finding it so hard to get a breath and find out whats wrong. and i can't take any medicine because it's part of my anxiety issues.

please does anyone know whats going on or how i can find out whats wrong with me?

[RubyWitch]

Since you don't take any medication that could help with your anxiety, I would strongly suggest you find a good therapist. Hopefully, he/she can help you without any meds. It's very likely they can, meds just give you some quick relief from the anxiety and sometimes make therapy less nerve wracking. You say you've been in therapy before but just couldn't "move ahead." Did you like your therapist? That is so incredibly important. It's also possible you just weren't ready at that time to accept the help, but now you are reaching out to us, so maybe this would be an excellent time to give therapy another go?  
Not sure what a "locum" is, but I will assume it's someone who is not, perhaps, an MD (Medical Doctor)? We have what are known as PA's over here, which stands for Physicians Assistants. They have had quite a bit of medical education, but the fact remains, they are not actual DOCTORS.
Is there not some way you can see someone who is not a locum? And especially someone who is not "dismissive" which is unacceptable! You should have told her to feck off! I would have.
Ms.Weekes book has indeed helped many people and I hope you find what you need there, but please stay in touch with us and let us know how you're doing, OK?
The very best to you
Peace
Greenlydia      

[sallyann27]

thanks for the advice.

i don't take any medication because its part of my anxiety. and i have visited the doctor about this stuff but it was a locum and she was very dismissive.

yeah i just find it hard to rationalise between what is real and what it isn't. bah it does my head in.

i've had councelling in the past and i just can't seem to move forward. i've ordered claire weekes book as i hear its helped some people.

thanks again for letting me rant greenlydia its appreciated.
SA

[RubyWitch]

I don't know what is going on.......I'm NOT a doctor. You obviously have some anxiety issues, which you say you are aware of. When you say you can't take any medicine because it's part of your anxiety issues, does that mean you have a phobia about taking meds or you can't take anything else because of what you're now taking? Sorry, I'm not clear on what you meant there. If you are NOT taking any meds for your anxiety, I think you should consider it and since you have issues about taking it, then you should also consider some therapy to help you get over THAT issue so you can begin to deal with the anxiety issues.
You say you inflamed muscles between your ribs and I will assume your doctor made that DX. So I will give you the only advice any of us here can which is to go back to your doctor and tell him/her all these other symptoms and go from there. It sounds like you need to have a few things ruled out, like your nausea, the lump in your throat, your apparent insomnia, your anxiety............it's quite a plateful, but I understand you WANT to feel better or you wouldn't have written to us. There are no doubt some folks here who have experienced exactly what you're going through and while that should offer you some comfort, it still does not replace a visit to your doctor. Please don't waste any more of your life feeling like this when there is so much help out there for you!
Please let us know how you're doing, OK? Write us anytime you need to.
Peace
Greenlydia