Please Help!

[EzraDreagvor]

I self diagnosed myself with anxiety Last May. I went into an enormous panic attack at 4am. Apparently, lack of sleep can cause panic/anxiety attacks. Well, my Anxiety at night calmed down so much. However, in the day time, I'd get all these hot flashes, I'd feel heavy and I'd feel like Everything was a dream or not real and I'd Panic because I'd think I was stuck in a dream or that Nothing around me was real. I hate that feeling with all my heart. Any little think really makes me panic. For a few days, I'd get these thoughts where I'd want to hurt everyone. (Never suicidal thoughts) But I'd think about hitting everyone I saw and It'd scare me. I fear going crazy and not being able to get rid of this stupid feeling. I'm 18, Male. No one really knows about my Anxiety because again, I'm afraid they might think I'm crazy. Also, other Symptoms.. I feel like My stomach turns to knots, or I feel like I'm gonna pass out. Or I'll get Ringing in my ears and palpitations, and It feels like someone is watching almost? Like.. Everything off the corner of my eye scares me. I know when I'm about to get an Anxiety attack because I start feeling like everyone around me is starting or I'll feel really light headed and dream-like and I start looking around and When I try to talk, my tongue just trips on it's own and it's just really scary. Also, I was kissing someone (We're dating) and all of a sudden, I turned my head a certain way and Liike.. everything felt again, like a dream and I freaked out and tried not to show it. But it totally ruined the moment. I heard that has to do with your inner ears.. IDK. But I really want to get rid of this. :/ Also, when I get a panic attack, I get on my phone and start looking up all these symptoms. And I try to find a way to make myself feel better. :/ Someone please help me. :/ I've felt so alone going through this on my own. :( I also get really moody. Like.. It makes me really pissy and I'm easily irritated. :/ That's actually how I feel right about now, which is why I typed this up.

[brokenheadbone]

its obvious you're suffering from anxiety, do you use any street drugs? energy drinks? soda?  i see you're worrying about your mother, which also is not helping, your young, and coming in to a changing part in your life,you no longer have the security of a child,which also may have a role in your anxiety. in time, i'm sure you will be fine.  

[remar]

I'm so sorry about your Mom. Now I understand your anger and anxiety. It all makes sense. Yes, I do think you will feel so much better once your Mom has the operation. Something like this puts a great deal of stress not only on the person going through it, but the whole family. It's because they're so worried. We're here to listen and help anyway we can.

[EzraDreagvor]

I'm already going to A chiropractor for my back, I have cardiologist bills and a few hospital bills from the times I've been to the hospital thinking it was something bad and stuff. :/ My mom is a dialysis patient and we have so many hospital bills. I can't really afford another doctor visit. :/ I would rather pay thousands to get my mother her kidney transplant. Maybe then everything will go back to normal.

[remar]

It does sound like possibly anxiety that you're having. I really recommend seeing your Dr for a full checkup. You should have your ears checked to make sure nothing is wrong there.
Anxiety can make you angry because you just want it to stop and you don't know how to make it stop.
Have you been under alot of stress lately? Problems at school, your family, friends, job? I see that you're 18. Are you still in school? I'm asking because I think it would be a good idea to talk to your school counselor. First, you should talk to your parents about this if possible.