i need help easing my mind. very anxious right now.

[erin626]

I've been incredibly tired today. I ended up taking an hour long nap when I got home from work, which I never do. My mind immediately jumps to heart problems, diabetes, a horrible illness etc. But my past few weeks have been hectic. I'm trying to calm myself down and rationalize with myself that I'm just worn out from working so much but my anxious thoughts are creeping in.

Last week I worked tues-sat and on sunday and monday, my days off I went out bowling with friends and ran around doing errands. I didn't relax much. This week I've worked tues-today and I still work tomm, sun and monday. That's not to mention that I've been having trouble sleeping and can't fall asleep until 3 or 4am even if I work at 10am. I wake up feeling exhausted and not rested. And I'm a waitress so I'm constantly moving and on my feet.

I keep telling myself that the alternating morning and evening shifts and trouble sleeping and hectic work schedule are causing me to be tired but I'm still terrified.

I need help to relax. I was just at my doc in feb and my thyroid is ok. So I doubt its a thyroid problem. I'm so scared right now that something is horribly wrong with me.

[erin626]

Thanks. I'm sure my anxiety is from my crazy sleep schedule but its almost impossible to be on a normal one. Sometimes I work 10am-5pm and sometimes I work 5pm-midnite. And it alternates all week. I woke up today and had to drink 3 cups of coffee just to get moving. I know caffeine is bad for anxiety and I try to avoid it but I'm so exhausted and I have to be at work in an hour and work all night.

My next day off is tuesday. Ill probably spend it at home and maybe get some cleaning done and just try and relax and watch some movies and play some games.

My last day off was monday and I'm just working nonstop. The tiredness is making me anxious and the nap yesterday didn't help...I was actually more anxious when I woke up. That's why I try to avoid naps.

I've been attempting to journal but I just don't seem to have time for myself anymore. I'm going on vacation for 9 days on april 27th so I hope I can just hang in until then when I have a chance to catch up on some much needed r & r.

[DJ873]

eriiinnnnnn, meditate meditate meditate, read read read, we have to stay on top of this and take care of ourselves or yes it does creep back in, you are wise to the ways, keep notes each time you swim your way back out so you can use them next time and it might shorten the suffering time. Assume all is well until you know any different. I need you my whoo hoo sista' we have made great strides!!!

[remar]

I think your anxiety is from not having a normal sleep schedule plus not getting enough rest. The next time you have time off work can you just stay home and relax? Maybe pick up a couple of movies and just lay on the couch and watch them.