anxiety and a death in the family

[lynn100]

hi i am trying to figure out what is causing my anxiety. i know i should go see a therapist but i can't do that for another two weeks. ok i am 16 and my grandmother passed away back in august of 2009 and she was basically my mother. i lived with her my dad and my grandpa because my dad took care of them. so was with her since the day i was born until last august. we were extremely close and i do have to say i was very dependant on her especially if something scared me cause no matter what she was there when i got scareda nd whatever she said to me made everything better. now i may sound like a baby but it just we were so close. i didn't let my feelings out whenshe died but only a little bit. to be honest i have kept my feelings bottled up inside all these months and have been fine until april. in april i started having anxiety not panick attacks but just constant constant worryng. i need to know do you guys think thiss is because she isn't here to kinda make me feel better about the things i'm thinking and worrying about. because everday is the same i am always scared and worried about stuff i sholdn't be worried about and stuff that normally wouldn't scare me. i cry alot because i'm so scaed i am going to be living in a state of constant fear and worry my whole life even with therpy. please help anyone oh and is this something i can fix on my ow because i'm not sure if it's true anxiety or if i'm bringing this on myself

[Princessdaniella]

You are welcome just remember that there are people who feel the same as You and You are never alone. If You ever need to talk or are not feeling as strong post a question and someone will reply. I know it is easier said than done but hang in there You seem like a very strong person

[MMahon]

You are not alone.  We all here need help with things similiar to your's.  You need to learn what exactly you are suffering.  My guess is that you are going thru a major depressive episode, precipitated by your grandmom's death.  This is not uncommon.  It one's reaction to these events and how long they last that gives an indication of how to treat them.  For some it's talk therapy and others it's medication or both. Don't be affraid to seek help..this happens to a lot of people and it's not necessary to suffer the effects of loss alone for so long.
May I also suggest that you get together with you Dad and Grandpop regularly and the 3 of you discuss your loss and how to cope.  I'm sure they too feel the effects and that the 3 of you can lean on each other to ease the pain.
The fact that you posted here is a great indication that you know to seek  help and are capable of finding it and moving on with your life, as I'm sure grandmom would want.
God Bless!

[lynn100]

i know i should see a therapist and i guess in the mean time i'm just worried it will take over my life and it's already starting to cause some bad dreams. but i will try my best to keep strong because at times my mind likes to try and tell me theres nothing to be strong about but i just keep in mind that i'm not theonly one who feels the same thank you

[29sillygirl]

If you have kept most of your feelings about your grandmother's death bottled up since 2009, what you are now feeling is your body's reaction.  High levels of anxiety are common after the loss of someone close and , in your case, someone you depended on for strength in times of stress or fear.  In other words: the finality is finally hitting you: you have probably kept busy and moved on as they say, until recently when your body is refusing to cooperate.

This is very normal.  You are at an age when you will begin making decisions about your future.  That alone is stressful.  You would like your grandmother to help you but she is no longer on this plane.

Do see a therapist.  It will help you.  Anxiety leads to depression, and that is not a good place to be.  Best of luck.

[Princessdaniella]

It seems as though You are quite depressed at the moment and having anxiety which could highly likely be related to the death of Your grandmother Yes.
I am "Sorry" about Your grandmother and this is a horrible situation for anyone to go through the loss and grieving of someone so close to You.
The after effects of a death can effect people in differant ways and can even take months up to years before they actually start to realise that person is gone. People react differently and it does sound like this is the case.
I would agree with You on seeing a therapist as losing someone so close to you is very difficult to go through. You will feel better in time Yes but it takes time and patience and I do believe speaking to someone will be of benefit to you. Thinking of you