ocd or schzo HELP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[fearful1025]

sorry for any misspelled and length
hello everyone
it start almost two years ago i was having problems getting erection with my wife. so i went to the net to find out and it said you could be homosexuality.so went back to work and it was a new guy at wok that was handsome  guy (i'm a dude and not gay married and never liked dudes  u know when dudes are handsome no biggie) I then had a panic attack and got out the area. After that had intrusive thoughts and couldn't look  a man in the eye.made  my sex drive with my wife worst. I then found out i had an infection down there (not std).Still the  problem with the HOCD was there didn't know what it was. went to net to find out if was i gay and found info on HOCD.  I was very depressed. read more and researched  all day everyday. i read something  that stated people with schizophrenia are afraid of gay people.I never had a problem with gay for the record. But seeing this made the anxiety worst. because family history uncle and aunt have schzopreina and sister has bipolar. after that i started fearing schizophrenia. I started analyzing  all my thought and what i heard and saw.went to therapist he said no not schz.  jus obsessive thinking. i stop going to him because he never really gave me anything to help me but to relax i did get some clexe i think it worked. later on when i got off of them i was fine  but still had the fear of schzo  i had stress from work and depression .
   At the time i started hearing things like a radio from house noises like a/c are any thing with a motor went to net and found out it called musical ear syndrome like a audio illusion that was cause by aniexty and stress.  I got that and it went away when i was stress free and not depressed. U can look it up.
   but thoughts of HOCD and S-ocd came back. I was at work one day at work with dealing with boxes and some noise that was kinda loud my coworker was behind me and i thought i heard him say "you got it" i asked him a few seconds later  asked if he said something, he said no. anxiety went out the roof. Now the thing is i have sleep apnea and didn't get much sleep the night before and went to work early. every since i misinterpret what i hear like when people talking sound like i hear my name .then i think man they was talking and that happen to everyone. this happen in like November of 2010.
      Now when the schzo fear come back that when over think noise. in June of 2011 i was working out i was tried didn't eat and didn't want to work out on the treadmill with headphone and heard or thought i heard " which this" in my own voice . anxiety went out the roof. now I know with ocd your thought are loud and intrusive not sure that what it was or not.  at the same time i think maybe i was zoned out and had a loud thought. my thing is why does this only happen when s-ocd and hocd is bad?    
i know its long but had to get it out. ocd or schizophrenia?
















































































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One day at work i was donig something with boxes and some noise. My coworker was behind me and i thougyht he said "you got it" a few seconds later asked if he said something he said no

[fearful1025]

o i pretty much know what is reality i think

[cassie263]

If you know what reality is you don't have schizo many people including me currently think we have schizo your brain wants you to believe it and since your brain controls you than you think you have it even when you don't you wouldn't be worried about having schizo if you had it

[fearful1025]

you are so right but it just seem it can happen, if i didn't have a family history then it would be easier to get over it.