should i broke up?

[armira]

Hi everyone.Im 23 and i suffer from anxiety,PD,GAD,OCD ,agoraphobia,socialphobia for a long time.My problem its that im engaged and im together with my fiance for 6 years now.I told him about my mental/emocional problems but he just can't understands me,he says ''its all in ur mind,just don't thing about it''.Everytime he invites me to go to his family my anxiety get WORSTTTTT ,i say i can't come but he forced me to go and say ''are u comming  or im gonna leave u''i mean he is so selfish ...but when  i go ,i'm afraid im going to do things out of control or i'm going to be crazy and hurt somebody (which i never could do in normality) than my anxiety goes in higher levels.I asked him to help me to deal with it but he doesn't even care,just says you have to do things that make u anxiety and face them,but I CAN'T.He said that we have to marry next year but im not ready to do it.Should i broke up with him,even i can't live without him because he is my first boyfriend and if i broke up ,here where i live im gonna be judged from everyone.I have no support from anyone,even my family.I'm lost,I'm tired of this life :'(

[heartfluttersflyawayplz]

My heart goes out for you, plz go back to dr and try more meds, they get new ones all the time, I took klonopin  and it really helped me no side affects did I get just tired at first,

You need take control of your life not your man, don't do anything you don't want to do,

Pray because God can help you, he's your friend and talking to him will help, God Bless you , Heart

[armira]

Hi and thank you so much for your advice.I was in meds,i tried so many anti depressant but nothing helped me,so i quit them by myself.I just use xanax0.5mg only when i have to go at my fiance house,go at university or even when i have to get out of my house,because im isolated.I prefer to stay alone and to read things how to recover from this issue that stole my life.
I have no support from my family because my father is 90% invalid ,he was shot in war when i was oly 8(i lived in war zone too),so he can't speak good,move or anything,that causes me big stress because he is nervous all the time,screams,and its so tensed situation.Maybe that caused my anxiety.I can't talk to my mom because she has enough problems to work for us,because im not able to work and i feel so guilty.
I tried suicide twice ,my fiance knew it but he didn't take it seriously,i guess he thought that i was just acting to take his attention or who knew.I'm so alone,I'm tired of being awake all the nights and cry like a child ,asking myself what's wrong with me,am I going to live this hell forever?
I see no changes,no solution,I'm hopeless ..

[remar]

I agree with everything the above poster said. Don't be forced into marriage. If your fiance is like this now can you imagine how bad things can get once you get married and have children?
You need to get in to therapy. Is that possible?

[oracle27]

are you taking any medication right now? or have you tried to seek any medical advice for your anxiety? Support and understanding from our family and the people around us will help us to recover quickly. I'm sorry to hear that your fiancee can't seem to understand what you're going through and im afraid that he will be of no help to your situation and worst is that you may likely to develop depression cause of too much thinking over the situation. Just take it easy and try to speak to him again about all your fears and the things you've been experiencing, anyway, if he loves you, he will accept you whatever you are and he will be more than willing to help you get through all of this. If not, then he definitely doesn't worth it, don't be afraid to loose someone who's inconsiderate. It's you who's more important than anything else, take time to focus on yourself and how to be treated. You're still young so live and make the most out of your life, and remember that you need to love yourself first before you can love other people or before you will be loved by others.