Redirecting Negative Energy: Reasons to Live?

[ILADVOCATE]

I do notice people sometimes experience suicidal ideations (can't say I am immune) and of course at that time the best thing to do is speak to your psychiatrist immediately. But if they just disrupt your moods or train of thought from time to time and not your whole life besides speaking to your psychiatrist I've found for myself one excellent way to redirect is to post one reason you want to live and why life is worth living, family, friends, goals, etc. and then keep going from there. Since its common to experience this, I'd be interested if people could just post one positive reason they want to live and why life is worth living even if they sometimes feel otherwise. Think about it.

[freebird227]

    My sponsor told me once that everyone is entiled to his or her's own experience of life,and choosing Not to be here is a viable opion.
My friend I only wish peace to you, I've seen it in your life since I've been on site.At this moment you seem to resent what I said, I'm OK with that. Reguardless I still care.

[bernie40]

Is suicide about self-hate and/or vengence?  I don't remember feeling either of those things, I just remember feeling so lost, so empty and a burden on all around me - is that self-hate?  I suppose it is in a sense.  I honestly believed that I would be making my parents lives better if I wasn't there - how odd when I look back, at how back to front my thought processes were at the time.  

Leta I don't see all of this - this forum - as "work".  I come here to receive support as much as to give it.  It gives me a sense of "normality" to know that others experience the weirdness of BP in the same way as I do.  I love seeing other people's take on situations etc, seeing all of us pull together at times and at other times almost "debating".  It keeps me mentally stimulated.

Leta you do yourself down so often and you shouldn't - because you do give excellent advice and offer much needed support.  I see us all as equal on here.  You are also a fantastic caring and insightful person!

I also come here for the contact with other people.  I don't tend to go out much and some days the only people I "speak" to outside of my immediate family, are the people on here.

Sorry, gone off topic a bit here....

[LetaB]

I'm sorry I sounded so abrupt. Rereading what I wrote to you I can see where you'd get that impression. No, REALLY, was there a defining miracle that made you suddenly want to go from wanting to leave to wanting to stay?
  You seem a very thoughtful and well meaning person and that is my opinion of you. I'm just so terribly unhappy it's hard for me to be friendly to people - I'm in my own ugly place. Please forgive my hasty words. I really do appreciate your taking the time out to try and reason with me - really.

[bastet56]

I have no more goals, I've seen my sons grow and have their own kids and with my medication problems I truly feel that if I run out of medication options I would rather not stay. That said however, my other half has told me that if I off myself he will too and I don't want that haunting me in my next life or wherever I end up so I am stuck.
  I'm glad you can find the urge to live somewhere in yourself. I'm glad whenever anyone can find a reason that pleases them to stay here. I just don't feel it.

[ILADVOCATE]

Medication options will increase in the coming years. For more information google "psychmeds123". If what is available now can't help there will be more options that promote a fuller recovery in the near future. As I've posted working with researchers to acheive that is one thing that makes me want to remain here regardless of anything else that happens. Don't give up on treatment. It will improve as will your life and there are practical things you can do for recovery in the meantime. If your life doesn't have enough meaningful activities find things that bring happinness and enjoyment in your life. Depending on people's level of recovery there are mental health support group, psychiatric clubhouses and everyday activities that anyone can participate in. It certainly would be worthwhile to join your local NAMI group.

[LetaB]

  Thank you, bulldozer. I know if I could stop feeling so stupid and full of SELF - self hate, self pity, self doubt - I would be more useful and easy going. I know I'm paranoid but truly some of what I fear is out there in store for me IS!
  You sure seem to know a lot of fun and affectionate people for one who doesn't get out much - REAL people - not only internet folks. How did that happen then? Also you seem to be more moderate - or at least more polite - about life.
  My life centers around my web contacts. My boys are at school and have social lives. My boyfriend's at work. This is what I look forward to when I wake up every day. I'd like to be more three dimensional but I'm continuing in this miasma. Today I hope to remember to contact the other psychiatrist available to me. If you don't hear from me for a while I'll be in treatment. I need an overhaul.