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[xxMusicSaviorxx]

Well Next monday at 2:00 pm I'm going back to the nerosurgen to discuss the results of my last MRI and MRA. I dont know what he will say but i hope that there is a treatment for it. I cant be paticent at this moment because of our court day ponstponsion till April which should have been resolved in either november or january! Now im getting really pissed off cuz through e-mails(Court orders) he is trying to pin this problem on my ma. Saying that we are keeping his son away from him when he the one to make arrangements for his son.Saying that he knows that my lil bro is devestated becuaes his father is not there when he has not said a word,cry,whine,or peep about his father. Every time we ask if he wants to go he immetealy says no, we ask him why but he always says '' cuz i like mama better'' I hope that i dont have to wait for any treatment till april cuz that and the internet harrasment that my stepfather is doing is gonna drive me mad..
  

[selmaS]

  I do remember that feeling ...that someone must be able to hear...yet not one seems to....

But, ur summer plans for the Gym do not sound like u can do them neway as u have chiari...working out in a gym is not the best idea as it will make u feel worse.
And recovery is more than a month....that might be the incision...but the rest takes more time than that....trust me.

Even if u feel good, if u do too much at this point u can do damage....u have to allow ur body to heal...and it will take time.

  "selma"

[xxMusicSaviorxx]

This mess has already been on my shoulder for 6 year and i know it will not come off. I dont really care if the court thinks i am a child, my mother says that i am older to her and suprises her that i am only 15.

As for the app., He recondemed the surgery but he said that he wants me to think it over. I want to go through with it but there are too many problems in the way! he said that once I get the procuder, it will take a month for recovery. I dont want to mess up my sckool with medical issues AGAIN! My ma is going to court in April and She needs to work like crazy to save time on her workhours.(She is a nurse who works in a mental hospital)

I dont want to do it in the summer cuz i was planing to go to the Gym and work hard(until all this happened)Plus i dont wanna wait any longer. I am not living a single day without this pain! I am depressed and i just cant take it any more! I wanna have a breakdown in sckool but I just cant. I feel like im screaming as loud as i can but no one can hear me or see me...

[selmaS]

  Well I am sorry, but ur Mother should be dealing with the e-mails not u....that way u can have some space to deal with ur own issues....u r still a child in the eyes of the courts...and u should not have to shoulder this mess.

I think it is wonderful that u care so much for ur little brother, and I hope some day he gets to show u how much that meant to him, but in the meant time try to take care of urself too.

  "selma"

[xxMusicSaviorxx]

He is my stepfather and by the court order he HAS to be intouch with us by only email because my ma and him have a son. I cant get away from it cuz it keeps coming back to me. I really care fo my lil bro cuz he was the real victum from this sitiation and he doesnt understand as well. my lil bro's Father is always wanting to start drama and never likes to leave us alone. But in a way im glad its just e-mails. .. Before it was terrible! He would come by our house demading to see his son or change into a sorry man and try to move back in with us. GRRrr.. i hated him for all the stuff that he put his son and us through...none of my problems can be spaced right now ...i just have to deal with it .....

[selmaS]

  Hi...I am so sorry u r having to deal with all of this...it is too much.....and I think u need to give urself room...

  How is this man bothering u on the internet?

Change ur e-mail or other settings so he does not have access to bother u...make the room, space so u can be away from this.

  Good luck on Monday and do keep us posted : )

  "selma"