Paternity?

[GianaJones6782]

TRIGGER WARNING: s/a

I’m slightly embarrassed to even have to make this post but I keep letting my anxiety get the best of me. I got sexually assaulted on December 22nd 2021 when I went out to a party with my friends. I never told my fiancé because I didn’t want him to think I cheated because this was definitely not consensual.
Me and my fiancé then went on to have sex January 1st 2022, January 5th, and January 9th.
On January 22nd I found out I was pregnant. The line was very faint. I went in for a dating scan on March 1st and it put me at 8 weeks and 6 days Due October 5th with a conception date of January 12th.
Even though all my ultrasounds since then have been lining up with her due date (except her legs measured long at 22 weeks) I’m still riddled with anxiety even thinking somehow it wouldn’t be my fiancés.
So would you all agree that my fiancé is most likely the father?
I took tons of pregnancy tests after the assault and they were still coming back negative all the way till January 13th (then I stopped testing until the one on the 22nd) so I’m pretty sure my fiancé is the dad but I just wanted to read everyone else’s opinions.

Edit: forgot to add that the first day of my last Menstrual period was December 9th but my cycles are very irregular and long. Sometimes my cycles are 60+ days.

[AnnieBrooke]

Based on good medical evidence, the doctor was saying your conception date was the 12th of January, which of course means nothing would have remained of your assailant's sperm in your body at that time and there is only one guy who could be the father, your fiance. Did you report the assault to the police? That is one way for a woman to take back her power after she finds herself in a situation in which she is powerless.

You didn't tell your fiance that you got assaulted. You were afraid you would be blamed (it's quite likely your assailant would have claimed it was consensual), you evidently were afraid your fiance would not believe you, and you basically kept the whole thing silent. That is a way to survive what happened in the immediate aftermath of the shock. But it doesn't work in the long term, once your emotional reactions get over the primary fear.  What you need to do now is talk to a therapist or counselor. Women don't report rape for a lot of reasons, especially because they feel they won't be believed. But the unfairness of not being able to give vent to their anger at being forcibly victimized can keep them responding to the event for a long time in emotional ways that interfere with their life.

So, talk to a counselor. Describe what happened, how you felt then, and how you feel now. Your goal is to stop this crime from carrying forward into your life. The guy did something to you back then, don't let him do it to you every day from now on. That's how you take back your power.

Once you reach some kind of emotional closure about the assault, the logic of what the doctor and the ultrasounds are telling you will have a better chance of sinking in.

Also, read the other ladies' stories in this community -- you'll find that when you're reading someone else's story you can easily see who is the dad even if the poster is too worried to see it. Sometimes this helps a woman look at her own question with fresh eyes and see it's as clear as their stories are.