Maybe its not me, maybe its the world that blows

[Omusicgame]

I have been down the dark road of depression many and many of times. I have seen its tongue, and felt its lick.  The world doesnt do anything to help.  I live vicariously, just like we all do, in hearing about strangers and others pain, and feeling a bit of satisfaction.  Saying YEAH AT LEAST THATS NOT ME.  But we have our own troubles, and that steers us off of our own troubles just for a little bit.  Sorry to say, but I know you do it too.  Also, I grew up learning cursive, and how to spell, and learning bout christopher columbus.  And now everything has been changed.  We ******* text everything now a days, who cares about spelling and cursive and all that.  I ******* cant stand how I was taught all these crucial things, never to need them in the future.  I was bamboozled!! Bamboozled by life itself.  Rock stars as I had seen them on videos in the 80s n 90s, are nothing of importance now to the majority of Americans.  I grew up playing in bands and even quit college to go in a band, to spend the last 10 years of my life playing music, for what, to be WOrking in Burger King now.  I have 60 credits, but i guess all the college I went through isnt worth it in this economy, and im afraid to play music again, because it kinda weens me towards depression.  I wanna be a rock star, but I dont wanna be.  I wanna a normal job, but i dont want one. The world is so messsed up, what do I do???

[mammo]

Our world is ever changing and we have to adapt accordingly.  Dealing with adversity and change can be difficult but a necessity if we are to survive.  We all deal with what we have been taught being replaced by technology, just like many people have lost their jobs to technology.  We outgrow rock stars, with the exception of a few which are still turning out hit songs.  I guess what I'm saying is life is about growing and with growth comes change and how we handle this change matters.  There are many people with college degrees having to suck it up and do less meaningful work, just to survive in this lousy economy...so know you're not alone with this. I think you need to make a list of what you truly want to do and what you need to do to accomplish that.  Accept that life is about change and change and growth are good.  Take one day at a time otherwise it can all be very over-whelming.  I think you just need to get all your ducks in a row and determine what you want out of life.  Seek therapy to learn why being in a band makes you depressed, and why change upsets you.  Life is what we make of it, and maybe Burger King works for now but don't give up on your dream.  Get into therapy to learn to accept things and to discover why you feel as you do. Therapy can help you sort thru all of this and become more focused in achieving your dream.  I hope this helps and good luck with whatever path you take!

[Rochelle101]

I'm no licensed help and I can't say I know all the roads of life but I have experienced my up's and downs and my god you have a talent for writing, and I know you may not be where you want to be but does everyone end up as what they want? society is ****** the media, our friends social life every part of our live does a part in shaping us and making who we are, do we have to live with that? **** no, as once said your story is written in pen you can not rub out any mistakes and you can't let anyone else write it for you. do what you want, live the life you want, experience things you'v never tried because in tge end you only live once, take time to stop and smell the roses and remember a problem shared is a problem halfved, if you don't want to experience the downsides of your past choose another path to follow be spontaneous and love the life you live, I hope this helped :)