am i going crazy?

[mandy876]

i let people take over my life and tell me what to do and she is getting rid of a lot of my things.  those are things that have happy memories.  even down to my clothes.  i have some clothes i can remember good times when i wore them on a special occassional.  maybe i hold on to the past too much im  71 that is all i have left is my memories.  dont think i can go on like this what can i do.  im going to the doctor to see if he will give me more meds maybe i want  care then.  i am so un my mom dad and hubby are waiting for me in heavenhappy.  i want to go on and be with my loved ones im 71 with no future.my mom dad and hubby are waiting for me i dream about them maybe i want wake up.  i am not suicidal. i jusr dont to live in this world anymore.   gloria789

[mandy876]

you sound real nice im 71 all the fun times are gone im in severe depression for 5 years it is hard to  watch your loved ones die slowly.  when ,my mom died that was all my body could handle.  everyone says get over it she was old.  i miss my mom she was my best friend and she needed me she had no one else.  my sis said what do you want me to do come stare at her.  i said no just be a daughter. she is so cold.  i will never understand her.  i feel i lost her when my dad died. she said  she loved him dearly but was not there when he needed.  that was the first time i saw that special look   in his eyes.  he said that i was his little standby my  mom would not have to worry.  he really knew how much i loved them.  gloria789

[mammo]

Hi Gloria. Often our memories are all we have, and they can take material things away but not the memories in our hearts....those are forever.  Do see your doctor it sounds like you may have some depression going on and he can help with this.  Try not to let people push you around.....not fair to you!  Try journaling all you remember about your parents and husband as a way to remember them and release the pent up emotions.  It would be a great tribute to them and keep you busy.  You will see them when it's time but for now do things you enjoy and make the most of your life.  Do something about the people who are pushing you around, this is only adding to your unhappiness.  Big hugs to you.