He Jewel,
So sorry to hear things are hurting right now.
There are many medications that may be suitable and it is best for you to talk to a doc and agree on what is to be subscribed.
Given the past abuse I would suggest too you are in dire need of talk therapy but that may have to wait until you are through court and settled down. Reason for that is talk therapy can be ineffective if you are too depressed or erratic. You would likely not be able to concentrate properly etc.
Hang on tight and see the doc. I use a drug called Effexor which deals with bith anxiety and depression but it can be hard to come off it as you'll see if you scroll down. But it is quite effective and has saved me several times now. But see what the doc thinks hey?
Best to you.
You sound like a pitch man for Effexor