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Continuous suicidal thoughts...
I am going to be crazy please anyone help me. I am continuosly thinking about suicide and ending my life. I am too scared of dying but My head is exploading with suicidal methods.I am exausted of living my life. My tears are not stopping and my heart gets so painful day by day. I don't know what to do? There is only one thing in my mind that how can i die maybe because of cutting my wrist or my head exploads or have a brain tumour or gets coma??? I just want an escape from my life. Yesterday i drink nearly half bottle of cough syrup but nothing happens just weird headache. I am 100% sure that soon i will get in mental hospital...i am just 22 but my heart suddenly get so painful like heart attack. Where untreated depression leads to...just death. Anyone plz help i dont want to die....just want to enjoy life like others what will i do to get myself happy.
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Hon, like everyone has told you, depression requires professional intervention. I'm sorry you think that you would not receive the best care where you live, but in all fairness, you've never tried. You have to try.
Talk to your Mom. Quit putting this off. You can't ignore depression. As you found, it doesn't just go away on it's own. You can do it.
Talk to your Mom. Quit putting this off. You can't ignore depression. As you found, it doesn't just go away on it's own. You can do it.
Okay its long story of mine but i try to short.
Actually i had never been went to psyhcritists nor taken any anti depressents meds. I have been known that i have depression one year ago by online depression tests which always came severe. I always have crying spells but i thought that it is due to my sensitivity. Then i started cutting my wrist just scratch one day, which is becoming deep now. I visit different sites just to know if i am the only one who is cutting or others too then i came to know about my depression. I agnored it but my condition becomes weird so for self help i read many self confidence books it give some relief but for few days. Then i came here to just know what is wrong with me.
I am living in a country where depression is uncommon and if someone visit psyhcritist is considered crazy thats why there are on good doctors nor thearpy system here. I have great trusting issues also. I hardly trust any one or doctors, thats why i am not in relationship so far. My mom wants me to go to doctor for my condition but it is me who ignored it due to trusting issue.
I can't suicide because i love my mom. But i think that my condition becoming so weird that it leads me to death. I really want help but don't know how. I want to enjoy my life and fulfill my dreams but my life is becoming a living hell. I want to help me. Plz advice me that what should i do?
Actually i had never been went to psyhcritists nor taken any anti depressents meds. I have been known that i have depression one year ago by online depression tests which always came severe. I always have crying spells but i thought that it is due to my sensitivity. Then i started cutting my wrist just scratch one day, which is becoming deep now. I visit different sites just to know if i am the only one who is cutting or others too then i came to know about my depression. I agnored it but my condition becomes weird so for self help i read many self confidence books it give some relief but for few days. Then i came here to just know what is wrong with me.
I am living in a country where depression is uncommon and if someone visit psyhcritist is considered crazy thats why there are on good doctors nor thearpy system here. I have great trusting issues also. I hardly trust any one or doctors, thats why i am not in relationship so far. My mom wants me to go to doctor for my condition but it is me who ignored it due to trusting issue.
I can't suicide because i love my mom. But i think that my condition becoming so weird that it leads me to death. I really want help but don't know how. I want to enjoy my life and fulfill my dreams but my life is becoming a living hell. I want to help me. Plz advice me that what should i do?
I cannot understand how you say you won 't seek professional help. No medication, nothing? WHY?? It will make you want to live again. You seem to want to go on as you are, deep in misery, because you won't ask for help. Don't you want to feel better? Why won't you get help??
You can voluntarily get yourself put in a psychiatric hospital if that is what doctors think you need.
I took an overdose once. Lots of pills gobbled down in a moment when I could not see or think straight. I was taken to hospital. I was give horrid stuff to make me sick, and then charcoal to drink to line my stomach.
My daughter came to see me. She had my 6 month old grandson with her. Tears were streaming down her face. I had hurt her so much.
Lots of people who attempt suicide live. Look at the daughter of nursegirl's friend. Her life has changed for the worse.
I remember when I was in hospital, in the heart ward, an elderly man in the bed opposite asked me what I was in for. I told him. He was horrified. He said, "What did you want to take your life for, I have had a heart attack and I thought I was going to die. I am so glad I didn't." That really upset me, but I still remember those words.
Here I am many years later, still battling depression. But unlike you I got the help I needed. I am glad I didn't die. I have a loving family who know how my life is, and they are very supportive. I can turn to them, and have many times.
Please help yourself.
You can voluntarily get yourself put in a psychiatric hospital if that is what doctors think you need.
I took an overdose once. Lots of pills gobbled down in a moment when I could not see or think straight. I was taken to hospital. I was give horrid stuff to make me sick, and then charcoal to drink to line my stomach.
My daughter came to see me. She had my 6 month old grandson with her. Tears were streaming down her face. I had hurt her so much.
Lots of people who attempt suicide live. Look at the daughter of nursegirl's friend. Her life has changed for the worse.
I remember when I was in hospital, in the heart ward, an elderly man in the bed opposite asked me what I was in for. I told him. He was horrified. He said, "What did you want to take your life for, I have had a heart attack and I thought I was going to die. I am so glad I didn't." That really upset me, but I still remember those words.
Here I am many years later, still battling depression. But unlike you I got the help I needed. I am glad I didn't die. I have a loving family who know how my life is, and they are very supportive. I can turn to them, and have many times.
Please help yourself.
I'm very sorry to hear you feel that way. I'm here for you too. I hope I can help you feel better, please check your messages, I sent you one.
You say "please help me", but then say you're not going to seek professional help. That's how you need to overcome this. We've already told you that.
What meds have you tried? Have you tried therapy? While you may FEEL alone, you're not. How many of us here have told you the struggles we've been through?
Hon, this is not going to go away on its own, and I think you already know that. There are so many meds out there, with a little trial and error, you can find one you tolerate okay, and even if you have to endure a few initial side effects for a while, wouldn't it be worth it? Heck yes!!?
YOU have to decide what to do, we can give you all the encouragement in the world, but YOU have to seek the help. We can't do that for you. Staying "stuck" without trying something seems crazy to me. You're saying how awful you feel, why would you NOT want to try everything you could to get better?
What meds have you tried? Have you tried therapy? While you may FEEL alone, you're not. How many of us here have told you the struggles we've been through?
Hon, this is not going to go away on its own, and I think you already know that. There are so many meds out there, with a little trial and error, you can find one you tolerate okay, and even if you have to endure a few initial side effects for a while, wouldn't it be worth it? Heck yes!!?
YOU have to decide what to do, we can give you all the encouragement in the world, but YOU have to seek the help. We can't do that for you. Staying "stuck" without trying something seems crazy to me. You're saying how awful you feel, why would you NOT want to try everything you could to get better?
thanks to all for replying. I am just too tired of life that i want to escape from it either by death or any other way. I don't want to live this life. I want to end it,maybe i done it much earlier but i only not doing it because of my mom, i don't want to hurt her,my father maybe he don't care.
I am not seeking any professional help, i don't want to go to doctors and take their medicines which make me sleepy, also i can't express my emotions and feelings to them or any other face to face, it looks so weird expressing my secrets to them which i never told anybody except God and my mom. I am so lonely , no body understands me. Suddenly i starts crying and act weirdly, maybe i an going crazy . I want to live for my mom but my life making it so difficult. I know if i end my life , my mom's life become miserable which i don't want, i only want to make her happy she suffer too much in her life but what i'll do my life gets tougher and tougher and i am becoming walking dead person. Plz help me, how i get rid of this misery of mine ....
I am not seeking any professional help, i don't want to go to doctors and take their medicines which make me sleepy, also i can't express my emotions and feelings to them or any other face to face, it looks so weird expressing my secrets to them which i never told anybody except God and my mom. I am so lonely , no body understands me. Suddenly i starts crying and act weirdly, maybe i an going crazy . I want to live for my mom but my life making it so difficult. I know if i end my life , my mom's life become miserable which i don't want, i only want to make her happy she suffer too much in her life but what i'll do my life gets tougher and tougher and i am becoming walking dead person. Plz help me, how i get rid of this misery of mine ....
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I think a very lot of people know exactly what you're going through, and you will find a lot of support here at MH. You will not find a cure....
I know you're tired.... I bet you're even a little bit scared. It's understandable. From some of the things you've posted above, I bet you feel as if there is no help for you.... you are wrong....
Please consult with a mental health care professional for a proper diagnosis. Only then can a proper plan be formulated in order to deal with your disorder.