Angry for no good reason

[theslytherinprincess111]

Recently I've been very easy to anger, I 've been screaming at people and hurting them with words. My family and close friends suffer because of me and I hate myself for that. When I'm angry I'm blind to everything else. I've tried breathing but it just seems to anger me more. Sometimes I reach a point where I start crying and because I'm angry I fight the tears and end up feeling horrible and ready to burst.
The simplest thing anger me, for example, my mom not picking up the phone, or the delivery guy being late with my food, or not replying my email.
I can feel the anger slowly building up and its horrible because I can't control it and I hate myself because of this.
I wasn't like this before but now for the last 2 weeks I've been snapping at everyone and before that I was depressed.

[theslytherinprincess111]

I did not go through the surgery because the thought of being unconscious around strangers is scary but the pain is getting  worse and worse so I think in the end I will have to shove my fear to the back of my head and finally do it.

maybe its the pain that is making me so angry and depressed but my fears are too strong to fight and no one seems to understand that.

There are other things going through my life right now and those things might be the reason why but then again I don't know anything anymore.

I'm so sick of everything, I just want a break which seems impossible  right now. Don't worry I'm not suicidal, I would never do that to myself and family

[Bubulous]

Anger is exhausting....
I know how it feels to get angry at the small things and in my case it is usually because I internalize the big things.  I was reading some of your other posts and was wondering if you went through with the exploratory surgery and if you think that the stress of that could be causing some of your anger.
I came home after spending Christmas with my friend and his family to find that my apt had been broken into and most of my things were missing.  I was angry for a few minutes and then let it go.  However, if someone is rude to me, doesn't offer to hold the door when I am right behind them, or many other small things like that I become angry to the point where I am ready to fight.
Hope you can get to the bottom of it and figure out how to stop the negative, destructive thoughts.

[MYoungAtHeart]

Anger is painful, both for the angry person and for the people who get in the way of the firestorm....With depression, anger is close to being the number 1 symptom that shows itself.  

When we are in such pain and suffering with depression, we are angry with the people we imagine have slighted us or have a better life than us.  So we lash out and end up more lonely because now those people see us coming and get out of the way.  

I do hope you will take advantage of the new year and hook up with a therapist or group that deals with depression.  There are no quick fixes with depression and sometimes it may take months just to get a handle on feelings that have been pushed aside or pushed under and have not been dealt with.  

I do wish you a Happy New Year and all the best...

M