Desperate for help

[innerchild09]

I'm really worried about my mom. She has diabetis and her sugur was low and took another pill on purpose to go into a coma! She isn't just talking suicide she is a step close to it! I'm severly worried. I did get mom to eat some sweets. I am mentally unstable and I really don't know what to do! I'm really scared that next time she'll take all her pills and won't say anything. And I really can't handle it! I can't breath. I'm having severe anxiety plus I'm dealing with my own suicidal thoughts and now I have to deal with hers. Anyone know what to do? I'm really worried and freaking out.

[innerchild09]

I think I made my point when mom told me what she did and I was crying hysterically. Yes I remind her how much we need each other. We are all we got. Sometimes I feel like part of it is my fault because of how much I need her. I put stress on her. I feel like I am ruining her life. I'm not saying all of it is me but I feel like some of it is because of me. Like she is tired of having a daughter who can't get out on her own. Sometimes she says that she don't think I want to grow up but I do. I mean for my sake and for her. No I don't know if I would move out but I just want the ability to be able to if I had to. Like if she did end up doing it. But I really don't want her to. I am stressed out constantly. I can't handle how I am and now I have to worry about mom killing herself. And since I have anxiety I have been having attacks. Anyway once agian thanks for the responce.

[mammo]

Have you tried talking to your mom and telling her how much this hurts and scares you?  Let her know how much you need each other and can support each other thru all this.  Please hang in there, and I hope you can start to feel better real soon.  It's a long, hard process but it can be done.  Take care....

[innerchild09]

Thanks for the replies. I am worried. I'm seeing a phych doc allready. And no I have no one else. Everyone that I knew and loved ended up hurting me. I guess no one really cared about me. So I'm all alone in this. And I don't know what to do because I never grew up. So I'm like a little girl worrying about losing the only person who can help me. I am trying to grow up but for some reason I can't seem to grasp it. So being so dependant on my mom if she leaves I don't know what I'm to do. I really don't know what's wrong with me. I can't handle my own problems as it is. I feel like I'm losing my mind. I'm regressing and on top of that mom pulls a stunt like she did last night. I told her to tell her friend about her incodent. She did. Her friend wasn't happy. And the only other person who might help me lives in another state and mom told her too. So mom isn't talking that way no more but I still worry she'll do it agian.

[mammo]

You are burdened with so much.  Is there any way you can keep your mom's medications and give them to her as prescribed?  I understand your concern for your mother, and you both need to get help.  Maybe if you can control her meds, while you seek help with your own problems, it will ease your mind a bit.  This is a lot for one to handle, but keep in mind that suicide is not the answer and may just take you to a worse place.  Your mom really doesn't want to leave you, she loves you deeply, but is dealing with her own demons, and if she lost you, where would this leave her?   If you can control her meds, and get yourself better, you can do more to get her help.  If there are other family members ask for their help, and speak with her doctor.  If she is suicidal and abusing her meds,they may want to put her in the hospital to get her help, and where she will be safe while you concentrate on yourself.  This way you both can get better.  Don't give up, I know it's very difficult.  You're not alone, and we are always here to offer help and support any way we can.  Take care....

[4Maddie44]

Oh my sweet girl.  You must get professional help.  You can't worry about your mom and yourself.  Have you anyone close, friend or relative, who can help you through this?  We are all far away, and cannot give you immediate assistance.  Try and be strong for your mom, and get help, NOW.  I am really worried about you, this message makes me feel you need support and help.  People here can care and support, but unfortunately cannot do more than that.  I am worrying about you, as I am sure others will be too.  We all care.  I am so desperately sorry, and wish I could be more help.  Please let us know how you and your mom are doing.  I know it is so very hard.  Please, please don';t do anything rash my love.