Confusion and Violent Thoughts

[Garthorg]

I have been dealing with this for a long time now.  For the past 20 years, or so, I have these erratic thoughts of violence towards myself, and sometimes others.  I am a non-violent person, but sometimes I want to just lash out and hurt the people that I am with.  I could be in a conference, or just simply engaged in idle chit-chat when the urge to hurt the person I am talking with overwhelms me.  Sometimes it gets so bad that I have to put my hands in my pockets for fear of losing control of myself.  This is becoming too much to bear, and I have been seriously considering ending my life before something really terrible happens.  What should I do?

[afq]

Hi, I have felt exactly the same as you described.
This happened after i stopped taking Xanax after having a panic attack due to an overdose of redbull.
The best thing you can do is, as rliz said, go to see a psychiatrist. They will prescribe you some medicine which will help you deal with those symptons in the short term.
Then try to stop taking any medication they send you as slowly as possible (ask your doctor about this). It took me over 4 years to stop taking xanax and other medicines gradually. Now I feel a lot better without those medications and I live a happier life even though the symptons have not completely gone, from time to time I still have those thoughts but they are very less frequent and affect me less.

If you need more advice email me at ***@****

Hope you get better!!!
Best regards,
Andres