I feel like a changed person lately...

[jb8176]

I used to be a really happy person. I was never what anyone would call outgoing (I also suffer from social anxiety, so I'm pretty shy actually), but I was always very friendly, nice, and kept a pretty positive attitude for the most part. In all, I was a pleasant person. But for the last few years, I and the people closest to me have noticed a dramatic decline in my personality. Where I used to be happy most of the time, I am now usually miserable. Also, no matter what I am looking at (literally and figuratively speaking) I see nothing but the negative in things. I have CRAZY mood swings what seems like monthly now. I've been getting them for a while, but it used to only be every 3-6 months, and now it is about every 1-2 months. And believe me, they aren't minor, either.
I'm not too sure what to do anymore, but this is really starting to take it's toll both on me, and my most cherrished relationships, too. All I want is to go back to being that happy girl I once was, and leave this miserable one behind. If there is a way to do it without meds, I'm all ears, as I don't have health insurance, and can't really afford it right now. So, any advice would be great.
Thank you!!!!

Jessica

[jb8176]

I'm sorry to hear you're going through the same things as I am, believe me! But thanks for your kind words, they are greatly appreciated.
I truly hope that the path you chose works for you. Would you mind me asking why you decided to stop taking the meds? And which ones you were taking? If you're not comfortable talking about it on here, I completely understand.
I don't have any health insurance, so I can't really afford therapy and whatnot. Besides, I have been dealing with this off and on since I was 15 (I am now 26), and I just can't do this anymore.
So, thank you again for the advice, and good luck to you too!!!

Jess

[strawb]

Hi there sounds very familir but being very impatient, and 17 at the time, i took the meds and ran!

ten years later i'm off the meds (just over a year ago) and am back to the dower negative neigh sayer and its awful and once again ruining everything i ever had going.

on the plus side - i've been recommended by my doctor to see a cognitive thought process therapist or to try homeopathy, or both, also counselling - though wont be bothering as it wasnt really appropriate the first time round and the more i talk to people about it all the worse it seems to spiral.

anyhoo -  good luck in ya quest - i've found the cognitive thought process stuff i've found online helpful to a certain degree so am looking forward to tryin that out, in conjunction with the homeopathy - already doing the oil of evening primrose, and vitamin b6 etc etc....

xx