I'm very upset and I don't know what to do. About two years ago I was seriously depressed but I was able to recover somewhat (enough to function at least). I could feel it coming back lately though. My daughter has been having problems in school and just a few days ago my husband's grandmother passed away unexpectedly. We all adored her, so it's been devastating for us. My MIL asked if we could come down for the weekend so we could sort through Grandma's things and I told her yes. I know my SIL will be arriving Saturday night, but that's okay because I would try to avoid her. You see, for the past 15 years, my SIL has treated me very badly when I'm in her presence and has made it very clear, by body language and tone of voice, that she hates my guts. I decided it a few years ago to just avoid her completely, which isn't too hard because she lives 1,000 miles away.
Well, while I was trying to relax this evening, my husband comes up with this zinger. "Don't think on Sunday you're going to just take off and avoid my sister. I want you to push the reset button and start over fresh." I'm floored by this because I have never said a mean word to her, even when I wanted to (and trust me, I've wanted to plenty of times). I felt like he was blaming me for all this. He has never believed me when I told him that she hates me. I told him I was not willing to start fresh because I know she wouldn't be. She's made several insincere apologies in the past only to go back to her old behavior. My husband is the one picking her up at the airport and he told me he was going to tell her to stop being a b**** and treat me like a member of the family for once. I told him it's not going to work because it didn't work in the past, and he said, "Yes, it will. I'm going to force both of you to sit next to each other and you're both going to sit and make small talk whether you like it or not."
It's going to be extra depressing because she has a very interesting life and she loves to chat about it. (She's extremely outgoing and talks a mile a minute.) She does and has experienced a lot of things I would like to do but can't for various reasons. So I'm going to be reminded of the very boring life I have yet again. I know she is family and it's good that she's there, but I just don't want to talk to her or even be in the same room as her. I am very angry my husband is forcing me to do this. We had a huge fight about it this evening, which upset our children. He thinks I've been making all this up the last 15 years because my SIL has never said she hates me to my face. He says I'm reading too much into her body language, but I don't think I am. She treats me completely different than the rest of the family. Here are some examples:
She's a nonstop talker, unless I'm the only person in the room, then she's completely silent.
When I ask her a question or say hello, she usually completely ignores me, or she scoffs and rolls her eyes.
The last thing she said to me was "Don't even think of sitting at this table!" This was at Thanksgiving.
She doesn't allow her current husband to talk to me. When he so much as says hi to me, she either gives him a look of death or says "Why are you talking to her?" And no, I've never flirted with him. Am not that type of person at all.
Two years ago, I heard she heading out on a business trip to the next town over to where we live, so to make a goodwill gesture, I called her up and said she was welcome to stop by our house or we could go out to lunch to try to make amends. She said, "Why would I want to do that?" and hung up.
That's just the tip of the iceberg, there's about a million more examples besides those. I initially thought I did something wrong, because this behavior came on very suddenly. Before she moved 1,000 miles away, we were very close but about a year after that, she came to visit us and I noticed she was barely talking to me. I assumed it was because she was stressed out because she was going through a divorce, but over time I realized it had to do with me specifically. I asked people what I did to make her angry with me, but nobody knew, which was unusual because she doesn't keep things to herself. Finally a few years ago, I wrote her a note apologizing for whatever I had done to her. My in-laws were going down to visit her so I asked them to deliver the note. She never wrote me back, but I guess she read the note and said to them, "Okay, what exactly did she do because I don't remember it." They asked her if she was angry at me for any reason, and she said no. I pretty much gave up after that and just decided to pretend she doesn't exist, because her behavior was/is driving me insane.
I'm starting to feel that Grandma is the lucky one here! I don't expect any solutions to my problem (though I'm still trying to find a way to get out of this situation). I desperately needed to vent and if anyone has any sort of insight on why she's been acting so weird these last 15 years or have been in a similar situation, I'd love to hear from you.