Is there a counselor at school who you can talk to who can direct you to someone who can help you talk this out? And is there a way you can stress to your mother that you're really getting concerned about this, which is very smart of you. You know this isn't getting you anywhere good, a lot of people don't and don't try and get help, but you want help so I think you'll get it. You just sometimes in this world need to be persistent because people, even parents, often find this a hard thing to deal with.
Nope.. No counselor or anything like that at my school.. But thanks for the help.. It really does mean a lot <3
Then you need a counselor not at the school -- a psychologist. It doesn't have to be someone at the school. Keep looking for your help.