Constanly feeling hopeless, stressed about everything, overanalistical, too-logical pessimistic, lost, clasterphobic, saddended by ever whats said to be happy. Negivity, suicidal and homocidal thoughts, can't concentrate, and other. My parents and my older brother all use me as a scapegoat and put preasure on me to be more than I intend to. I beleive I'm depressed but my parents don't beleive it and think its a phase, they won't allow me to go to check with a doctor. It's gonna hit me some day and i can't come up with a solution... What do I do?