i need help, im 13 and a girl

[13girl]

im 13 years old, and i have been going through depression for a long time now, i have self harmed countless times, i did it yesterday also, i smoked because it calmed me down, but stopped because i am against smoking, so i stopped a few weeks ago, i have tried to suicide so many times, and have thought on how i could kill myself, i have told my parents that i need help, but all they say is that it is normal and that im just going through a phase, when i finally convinced them to seek me help, they said they would, but it has been 3 months now, and they have not meantioned it to me, not even once, i cant concentrate in class because my mind goes on to thinking evertything that is wrong with my body, i have tried to make my self puke, and have made myself faint in hoping i would not wake up, pls tell me what to do, because i am scared, i have no one else to talk to, and my mind is taking the best of me

[Bubulous]

Welcome to the forum.
I understand what you are going through.  You are experiencing some unusual behaviors that are becoming coping mechanisms for you.  The cutting and puking just helps you to believe you have control.  I know that you need help and there is help out there for you.  You are welcome to discuss whatever you need on here and you will not be judged.

[13girl]

thank you it means a lot to me

[CRSeaside]

It's always good to talk about how you feel.
I understand too. School social life being young having your hormones changing. It all is part of it.
Everyone is different. When I was your age I coped by swimming 2 x pr day. Do you participate in sports?
I also felt better when I had a lot to do. I took care of the house for my mom. I helped her raise my 1/2 brothers.
  Go to your school counselor. See if you can get school credits by working. I did volunteer work at a local hospital. Each hour was counted as school credits.   It might help to also have an outside study group. Meet at the library
  You can talk yourself into being sick sometimes. The good news is you can get well too. Thank you for your post. Maxy

[13girl]

thank you so much for your help. it means a lot, i will go to my counselor
tomorrow thank you again

[CRSeaside]

You are welcome. You are an important person with a great future ahead of you. Sometimes despair is just temporary and by thinking of pleasant memories we can break that cycle. You sound like you're very smart. Do well in school and look forward to your University years. I had some wonderful experiences. Even went one year to the university in Mexico City. Maxy