Confused

[Cheare]

I am 25 years old with an amazing 3 years old little boy. I have been living with his father for about 5 to 6yrs now but we haven't been together in a relationship that was steady for about 2 and a half yrs. I work as an ok job, but because I know on my head I'm single, although we live together I just can't shake the feel of feeling alone, alot of the time UN happy, and confused. I love my son father even though we have went threw hell, but I don't wanna wait for him to forgive me or himself for what ever we have gone threw. People tell me all the time to just leave, like it's ever that simple. I ave no place to go but a shelter if I did that and  nyc shelters are a piece of you know what. He's not a bad fatherfather, he's just not that great of a lover although he has helped me along the way with somethings and I knew him since I was a adolescent. I am confused because in all do reality I can not help, but feel lonely and wanting more am I going crazy?

[mom3209]

He is your childs father. Relationships and marriage that are truly worth it take a lot of work! I have been married 10 years and still question my choice because it gets so hard. BUT, I know that the same problems would arise with any other person.
If the father of your child is a good person, stay with him. You child deserves it. Go see a Marriage Family Therapist and talk to him about a more committed relationship. You deserve it, your child deserves it.

[mom3209]

Remember, you HAVE to work at a relationship. HARD. When was the last time the two of you went on a date? Get a bbsitter and GO! When was the last time you did something for him to serve him and make him happy. If you put in the effort, you will feel differently towards him.