Death is NEVER the way. You've been through more in your young life than most people would EVER experience and then some. NO wonder you're struggling so much.
Do you have an addiction problem? This is an addiction community. If not, please let us know, we'll get your thread moved to the depression forum.
PLEASE please please reach out for professional help. You need it, hon. You are exhibiting signs of depression, anxiety, and perhaps some other mental disorders. There are LOTS of treatments out there, you do NOT have to suffer needlessly, I promise.
Please get back to us, let us know if you're struggling with an addiction too. If you feel you're really in danger of harming yourself, seek help right away. Don't mess around. I know you feel hopeless, I can understand that. You took the first step and reached out here. Things can only get better from here. Tell yourself that...believe it.
You're in my thoughts.
I cant imagine some of the things you have been through but please beleive me when I say nothing is worth taking your life. I to suffer from severe depression. My childhoo
d was nothing compared to yours but itwas no walk in the park. You just have to put one foot in front of the other until you feel better. The problem I work on daily is letting other people define me. Dont let your past define you go out and find who you are and what satisfies the void inside you we are all trying to fill. I will pray for you and pray this helps.
Get some medical help now. We will be here to support and encourage you, but at this point you really need to seek professional guidance. Let us know how it goes.
My heart aches for you friend. Yes, friend. That's if you will have another "recovering" addict as a friend. I'm working on the "recovering" part but either way, I'm a good listener. As the others have recommended you really do need to seek guidance from a doctor. There has to be nurses or counselors there at campus that can lead you to the right direction. Please don't be embarrased or ashamed. There is an entire world out there calling your name! Happiness and smiles! Please seek help. In the meantime, you have us. Ok. You have us as friends. I have met some INCREDIBLY compassionate Individuals on this forum and I will be forever grateful. I'm also a pretty caring individual myself so please let me at least pay it forward. I want to be here for you. Promise is though you will go see a doctor and be honest. Will be anxiously awaiting your next response!
Hello and welcome,,,you got friends here,,,,,
The life you describe now is not living, it's chained to a feeling...one you can never hang on to.....and what you're hanging on to is killing you slowly and stealing your life,
I can't tell you what would make life worth living for you. (nor should I) it's your teachings...your story to own,,,,,,,
You're right,,,,we can't stay in the "past" it will become our "today" when we do that..
killing yourself sounds too easy...you're stronger than that....you're a "survivor".... else you would not have made it this far. Theres a reason you were put on this earth...and I can guarantee it's not to live and die that way...
The last thing to go is always "hope"....and thankfully you still have it !
Try and get some counseling right off the bat....
stick around make some friends,,,,
You have friends on here and there are many good people on medhelp like maddie,rose and NG just to name a few.
Oh and I forgot swabes,she is so honest and has a great heart.
I feel I can not to my counselor anymore of how these s thoughts attack me and how I really feel......