Hi! Both of y'all sound like you feel just like I do. It's actually good to know that I am not just a crazy lady. My moods almost always are influenced by my environment. I have a special needs son who is 19 and an 11 year old who is has bipolar w/depression so I know my load and it's always a heavy one. But I was just telling my husband this morning that I know I have triggers, even the silly dog will trigger a mood. I can't change my environment so what could I change? I am on Wellbutrin also. I have tried other anti-depressants too but it seems to be the only one that takes the edge off. Every day after my day is over, that is when I can get back to myself and unravel the events and moods of my day. I think to myself, wow, I evidently have little control over how I feel. Recalling my day just makes me feel negative emotions all over again and triggers another roller coaster. I know I used to be a sweeter person but it's getting harder.
Hi friend,
wow, you sound exactly like me although in the past I've been diagnosed as "high free floating anxiety and panic disorder with rapid cycling bi polar disorder" whew!
I am on Welbutrin now and have been for the last 15yrs. off and on.
I have been this way all my life and I am 54 yrs. now. The Welbutrin is
the only a/d that has worked for me without side effects. I've tried a lot
of others over the yrs. A LOT. All of them had severe side effects for
me and I just couldn't hack it. I have also wondered if I was BPD as I
have some of the traits too.
Yes some days are a rollercoaster like nobody would believe. In the depths of despair one minute and then the next I could be right out of that mood and onto another.
You are not alone.