Hi...you're not alone, you have us who truly understand how you're feeling. It's good to talk about what is going on in your life and a big step in the right direction. We're not judgemental as most of us have been where you are. As 4maddie said, let us know what is going on so that we can all help you through this.
Welcome to the depression site. Everyone here has depression. I myself have had depression over 20 years and many, many times have felt like you. I am now feeling well on Effexor which I have been taking for a few years.
Have you been diagnosed with depression. Are you on medication. Let us know why you are feeling so low at the moment. You say you can't live like this. What do you mean exactly?