how do you know if you are suicidal

[finsright]

When my first husband died I wanted to die. But I didn't because the pain it would cause my children. I remarried and things got better.  Now I am in chronic pain and can't enjoy anything. I feel like a burden, but that sounds unselfess, and I am in a completely selfess mood. I dont care if it hurts anyone or not. I am in chronic pain but I always believed I would find an answer. Over the last month I have been told by two doctors there is no answer, I can expect it to only get worse.
Why put myself through this? I have worked  all my life, I lost my husband of 34 yrs. I just wany yo be out of pain and to be with him. Is suicde really a danger for me right now or am I just looking for that answer I thought I'd find?

[mattsnapper]

Im not religious and believe that we only live once

I have wanted to kill myself many times to get out of the pain depression brings - I understand how you feel

Although some have offered love and support, dare I suggest think about ending your life for one minute - people ALWAYS say goodbye in some shape or form. Despite being selfish there is always an ounce of compassion to say goodbye. No one wants you to take your life, nor do I. After thinking about it I sincerely hope neither do you.

Only you can fight this.

You can get up and kill yourself or get up and fight it. You still have to get up. If you were like me hopefully you understand that simply getting up is quite a task!!!!!!

As I said to someone else, change your diet - drink juices for a week. Sleep lots. Read Jason Vine juicing books. You are what you eat. You dont need food, only nutrition. You have a choice to take herion or inject your body with amazing vitamins. You will see a difference. If you dont try it you wont succeed will you? Apple / Pineapple / carrots / cellary / avacado / berries etc - they are littered with amazing vitamins that possibly your body is lacking.

You have lots of choices. You already have made the right choice by posting on here. Thats the hardest part I can assure you is seeking help. Just because 2 doctors say things ....dont give up. I got through 4 counsellors before one connected with me and we made progress.

Telling people to be happy is the most insulting thing anyone can say to a depressive - but dare I suggest celebrate your ex-husbands life and cry even more when you realise you miss him. Can you share your misery with your children and even your new husband?

One thing for sure is that you are not alone and it is best to sometimes laugh about it - dont be scared - you are far stronger than you think you are. Dont be brave, just be you. x

[Katona1700s]

Hey.
I dont know much about symptoms for suicide, Health Class didnt cover that one for very long. But you are right, your children need you. If your "Doctors" dont do anything and just say that you are getting worse, then they arent much doctors. I would suggest seeing a different doctor, someone who will actually do something.Your first husband wouldn't want you to take your life, just like you children wouldn't want you to either. Hang in there, for you children.
<3 Katona1700s

[dwt7let]

Hi Gail
I am so upset to hear how bad you are feeling, could you not search for a second opinion
about managing your pain I carn't believe that Dr's would just let you suffer how disgraceful !! Search on the internet re your condition, what pain killers are you on ?
Feels like you haven't grieved properly for your husband and his mothers funeral has brought back all your pain and your mother inlaws loss and the loss of your health and ex-husband is over-whelming you.
You are not going mad and you won't go mad !! You haven't had any change of medication have you ?
Please don't say you want to kill yourself your too special for that I know you might feel in a dark place but try to think of positives in your life even if they are small ones !!!!!!
Could you go for some counselling it would help to talk, I'm here to talk too !!!!!!!!!!
God Bless and Take Care
Love
Lorraine Your Dear Friend !!!!!!
xxxxxx

[more0then0a0virus]

Hi.
You are in though situation. I`m sorry.

I would suggest you to talk to a psychiatrist. He could help you in accepting this kind of reality. Sometimes it`s too hard to be objective in subjective situation, and he can suggest you how to look this all differently...

Take care...

[JE55LEW]

Hi there
if you think you might want to harm yourself you do really need to get help go to the hospital if your doctor wont listen to you before you do sumthing please. like you said the pain it would cause your children thats a reason for not wanting to do it and be here for them. do you take any medication for the way your feeling? hope to hea from you soon and stay strong i know what its like to feel like you don't wan to be here. Jessica