I am better, i recovered

[therese83]

When i look back on my illness now that i am medication free after six and a half years, psychotic depression.

I want to say, don't give up, don't believe you have a 'genetic disease', Of all the things that helped me (now believe me i tried every alternative, herb and therapy) work, pursuing work and pushing myself working on my confidence has been the winner.  Stress, work pressure and and living up to my responsibilities taking care of my four children and creating a beautiful home, takes my mind off myself

"Time for yourself"  is not all it is cracked up to be, pondering, ruminating on your troubles will not make you better, counseling, going over the problems, will not help, FOCUS OUT !  Focus on others, put yourself last , that is how i get better.  No gym, just a little relaxation, meditation, and WORK !  I dont do holidays yet, maybe some day i will.

There is too much focus on 'self' on individual commit yourself to others and force yourself to get out there.

Sorry to preach, it feels so good to be better, sex drive, life drive is back !

[Poo44clooner]

I am really glad to hear that your illness is in remission and that you are medication free.  But you can't make sweeping generalizations like that.  Focusing outward, volunteering your time, etc to cure your mental illness doesn't always apply to everyone.  I know for me that was not  the case.  I had worked for 15 years straight out of college in a medical laboratory.  I was the best at what I did and damn proud of it.  I had a young daughter and I was a single mother.  Things were going great then one day things started to get worse, my anxiety got to the point that it turned into panic and paranoia.  I was physically shaking, I could not take enough tranquilizers to stop the panic.  I bought a bike to ride every day after work on a bike path for an hour at a fast speed, but my heart still felt like it was going to jump out of my chest.  Then one day at work I could not not concentrate on my details of my job.  I was used to multitasking, doing 2 or 3 different tests at once with over 40 to 50 specimens per test, labeled without the patients' names but with designated well numbers like A1, A2, etc., answering the phone, answering people's questions.  My mind simply could not function anymore.  I kept running to the bathroom and crying in the stall.  I was basically nonfunctional.  I called my mom and she heard how I was. I could not complete any tasks. She told me to just come on home.  So that is just what I did, and I called my manager and told her that I was unable to work for now.  I have been on disability since 2002.  The panic soon spiraled down to the most deepest depression, was suicidal so many times.  Even to get up and take a shower was a major, major chore.  It was simply out of my  hands.  I got better because I happened to have found a great doc who never gave up on me, tried all the new meds, even over 30 electric shocks, but nothing worked...oh maybe some of the meds would work for a few months but then it was back to major depression and anxiety.  He never gave up, and he finally gave me one of the old antidepressants called Parnate, where you have to watch your diet, but my life started to come back to me.  I enrolled in  school and within the year I will finish and go back to work.  My depression is finally under control.  I may have my days, here and there, but I snap back much quicker and see that it is temporary.  A major improvement from where I was before.
So everyone gets better differently.  Medication does help for some.
Angela

[HamedKhatiz]

P.S. Sex Drive LOL!

[HamedKhatiz]

Boo ya!!!!!
It's these stories that make people smile. I just finished writing to a woman who wanted to committ suicide. It's people like you that make people turn people around.
Your man, Hamed Khatiz, Sydney Australia.

[dave43]

Good to see you are doing well! Enjoy the rest of your life!

[therese83]

Thank you

[freddie8605]

Congratulations!! i am glad it worked for you :)