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[mandy876]

i guess i write too long questions.  i would like to apology.  i will keep  it short.  i dont want christmas dont want to hear any music.  i feel like i am going to scream.  but no one would even notice.  i have worried myself sick.  keep breaking out in cold sweats.  just want to go to sleep and forget it all.

[mandy876]

you hit the nail on the head i always stay in the middle and catch it from botyh sides i have got them together and then they live in the past and one little word and its there agan.  then they try to make me take sides.  i sit bty my dads bed side while he died with cancer.  my hubby said he thought his meds were working 2 min. later he fell in the floor i called 911 and they told me how to try to bring him back.  we went to hosp am and early the next morning they said he could take no more he had died.  he was too young to have a heart attack.  my mom had alzeimers and conjestive heart failure i stood by them.  i moved my mom to my home.  had help from hospice. my sis was mad wanted to dump her in a home. my heart is too soft i have to be there. i dont care about myself i lost a lot of years.  gloria789

[markymark77]

Well looks like me and you have alot in common. The reason they don't listen is b/c I can almost bet my life on it, that you've always helped, you've always been there, you've always held everyone together etc etc right?! That's some of them are excluded from the family also b/c they are always ungrateful and your bro and u and others have tried to help them before huh?! There's some stuff that's went down almost the exact same way on my end. It's simple it's not fair to you, and you deserve better!!!!! Your 71 years old for Christ sakes where's the respect!!!???

[mandy876]

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[mandy876]

thank you for taking time to listen.  i am 71 my 52 year old niece moved in with her 25 year old daughter they have been here 5 years we have a 5 year old very active boy.  they dont help with expenses and when i say i dont feel good they dont believe me.  i dont even tell them any more i just stay in my room.  where i get to baby sit a lot. im tired. i lost my dad my hubby and 5 years ago my precious mom.  been severly depressed ever since and it seems to be getting more and more. my bro in law is upset i let them move in and they have been excluded from the family.  so im in the middle not fir.