whats really wrong??

[Lagoona09]

ok..well here is my serious problem.. i think i have an depression disorder..ive looked it up..and so far the symptoms has checked out with me. every since one of my bestfriends died an my grandfather passed a year apart i havent been the same. sometimes i wake up mad and just be mean to everyone, then the next minute im nice to them an caring..i rather tx a person than talk to them on the phone cause i hate hearing voices sometimes; it gets highly annoying. i love my boyfriend like crazy but sometimes i get irritable with him an he is so harmless..i dont know. if its cause i seem insecure or what..(ive had serious heartbreaks).sometimes i wonder am i bipolar because my male bestfriend can ask me a simple question and i blow up about it starting arguments with him..or he may ask how is my morning/evening and i just snap.but he knows i doesnt try to be that way..i really dont know whats wrong with me..can someone please tell me whats going on???

[mjbrown]

I agree with mammo. It sounds like you are suffering from depression. However, talk therapy may be your best first approach to overcoming what you are feeling. Bereavement after the loses you've had is completely normal and part of the grieving process. However, bereavement can also lead to depression. There is no set time limit to bereavement; however, if your feelings have not been getting better and have lasted for a long time, it may have turned into depression. It would be helpful for you to have someone you can talk to about what you are going through and the loses you have suffered. You and your therapist can also speak about the possibility of taking an antidepressant, but in your case I think talk therapy will be very effective.

All the best..

[mammo]

You are obviously depressed, along with some anger issues.  Consult with a psychiatrist who can bets determine what medication is best for you, and help you work with your anger issues.  I've went thru this after losing a son and grandson, I was either very angry, or crying (mood swings).  You have been very hurt, and are angry over your losses (normal).  We sometimes lash out at those closest to us, but it's not your fault.  Most of us need help at some point in our lives, don't hesitate to get it so that you can get your life back. See a psychiatrist as this will help you get thru this difficult time