For four years now I've been bulimic, and have always had problems with mood swings. For the past six months the mood swings are getting ridiculous, I switch between deliriously happy to feeling complete anger, breaking down and crying then into a state of feeling nothing, without warning, and its starting to scare my parents, and the people in my new school have pointed it out to me numerous times (which is not good when you're in a new place trying to make friends). I often get overreact to the smallest things, and get angry at people for no reason to the point that they give up on me. I find I'm tired all the time, finding it hard to work or get motivation to do anything, I either can't sleep at all or sleep for hours on end so I'm always late and I'm overreating every day which is making my anxiety/bulimia worse. I get really anxious in social situations and have started to find it difficult to hold conversations. I self-harmed on an off for a year, and recently started again. Last year I tried to commit suicide twice, and it's a thought that's been coming into my head alot recently.
I don't know what to do. I don't know if I'm depressed or just being paranoid. I feel like I'm letting everyone down by not being able to control myself. I had counselling for around a year and stopped because I found it just made me feel worse by having to talk about all my problems and justifying my actions, because I can't.
Does anyone know whats wrong or what I can do? I really need to sort this all out.