Oh I am so sorry...first for your loss of dear Wave. for the grief you are going through, and for that last few minutes when she was hurt by the injections.
I do know what this particular sorrow is like, as I had a dear little dog, a Jack Russell, who passed in 1999 frm Prostate cancer.
Well, actually he passed from being put to sleep, by the log fire here at home, as I called the vet out so he could pass at home.
But when the vet gave the sedative drug, he yelped most painfully, and was obviously hurt. It was so very upsetting.
He fell asleep a moment later from the sedative so that was the last thing he knew in this world. Me calling out a vet who hurt him when he was already feeling rotten.
The sedative drugs are intra-muscular and that's why they hurt.
No-one warned me about that.
My husband (who also passed 1999) used to have regular intra-muscular injections -strangely for the same thing our dog passed from -Prostate cancer.
He told me those injections were always very painful. But at least he knew why, and was prepared.
I am so displeased that the veterinary profession cannot come up with another, kinder, sedative solution for end-of-life (or indeed -any time.)
Why can't they use a sedative gas that is waved under the dog's nose....or something like that??
I am so very sorry.
But I will share something with you which is very beautiful, spiritual and joyful.
When my last dog passed -my Misty (her pictures are on my profile page) a few weeks after her passing I sensed her very strongly, her love, her character, as if she was right beside me.
She showed me so much love, a sense of great freedom, a knowledge that she had not forgotten me, and a real joy.
So I know our loved ones are indeed safe. And that their love now is magnified. That they never forget us as we are so dear to them, an dthat all the illness, the troubles, the vet visits etc, are all forgotten quite happily by their Souls.
All that matters to them is that they love us and know we love them.
So please, even in your deep grieving try not to forget that. One painful sting in their body is as nothing once they have passed over into the width and beauty of their loving Souls.
Wave will certainly love you always. Unconditionally.
Do send out your love towards her any time you can. Knowing that we are aware the loving connection never dies, brings them much happiness.
God bless you.
I’m sitting here with tears just pouring. It won’t be long until I have to put mine down due to congestive heart failure. I’m dreading that so much, he will be my third. I feel for you and I don’t have a real answer to your problem or mine. I hope you know, I and lots of other people love you. I know your dog knew you loved with all you have. God bless and soothe you. (And me)
(((((hugs))))))Jodie. I can so relate to your sadness. I, too, had to put my dear, sweet Bella to sleep this past July. The vet didn't give her a sedative, just the main shot, but she injected it slowly, near the end of the shot, my dear Bella moved a little like she was a wee bit scared, the vet said "she is feeling it" then, her sweet head dropped. I was holding her and petting her. It hurts so darn much when we have to do this to our beloved fur-babies. I cry thinking about it even now.
Let me reassure you, your beloved Wavey knew you weren't doing anything to hurt her, she loved you (and still does) her entire life and even when she was taking her last breath on earth to go over the wonderful Rainbow bridge. The bond you too had was so special and I truly don't think that will change even now. Please try not to beat yourself up over this, I know it was devastating to hear her little yelp, but it sure doesn't mean she was upset with you, like the moderator here said, it is an IM injection and they hurt in the best of times, I really don't know why the vets can't do this some other way, such as gas or something.
God bless you my friend.