20 years of stomach pain and i've had enough

[dolo120]

I am 23 year old male and i currently weigh 125. my weight never gets above 130 no matter how much exercise or food  ingest. i have been dealing with stomach issues as far as i can remember. it usually sets in around morning time. i usually have the water faucet effect of diarrhea  followed by severe anxiety and stress which immediately caused me to vomit for hours. today i saw four (4) specialists from family practitioner to a psychologists. in the past 6 months i've been to the ER a total of 4 times while receiving little to no relief. IV's and pain killers while in the hospital calm me down, but it seems as soon as ithose wear off or i leave the hospital it just is a downward spiral. usually the pain is so bad that if i don't self induce throwing up when i feel it coming up the i get very nervous and shaky along with the "Pins and Needles" feeling of no blood circulating to my body. Today i've collapsed atleast 3-6 times and have had a number of panic attacks.

Additionally i've been under an absolutely absurd amount of stress that i can't seem to relate to nor can allow my self to just calm down. i've also been noicing an absolutely ridiculous change in vison including things there that aren't really there.

My concern is that this is going to have a huge impact on my health perhaps even take me away from this world if i continue to allow my self these feeings. myquestion is how can i deal with this while not getting so anxious about it? i hnestly cannot live with this anylonger and now an i.

[gmac1217]

I would ask your dr for some zofran or phenergan, both work for nausea and will allow you to at least keep your medications down. Also try drinking chicken broth, or gingerale little sips at a time just so you dont get dehydrated. I too have bad anxiety and am currently taking ativan. Although no pill is a miracle drug but it does take the edge off. I would also see a gi doctor to have an endoscopy done if you hadn't had one already, and maybe you need an mri of your brain. Your nervous system can be setting off mis signals and your nausea and vommitting can be coming into effect for that. I hope you figure out what is wrong with you and once you feel better(dont ever give up) Let me know what they said..... I will keep you in my prayers!

[dolo120]

i appreciate it so much. they gave me two shots of valium, i have lexapro, abilify and xanax. all of which i simply cannot keep down right now. my head is spinning out of control and i don't know who to talk to about it. i've been everywhere, i've done testsgalore. im just not making any progress. mind body spriit is in shambles due to the body aspect being so upset.

[toosick13]

You said you'd been to psychologists; have you seen a psychiatrist?  I'm not being sarcastic; it sounds like you need help, immediately.  Are you on any meds for anxiety, depression?  What did the psychologist say?  I hope you told him/her about your feelings of "even take me away from this world if I continue to allow myself these feelings".  It really sounds like you need psychiatric/therapeutic treatment NOW.  I'm not saying you don't have GI problems, but apparently your physical problems are now greatly affecting your emotional status.  That makes your GI system react negatively, and is definitely dangerous to your health and well-being.
Have you been tested for celiac sprue?  I would think if you've had problems since you were 3, you'd been tested for everything. but I assume nothing.
If it were me, my first priority would be psychiatric treatment/psychological therapy.  It's amazing what healing the emotions can do for healing the body. Please don't consider this as "it's all in my head" type of advice.  Believe me, I've been there.  But you need to take care of yourself, mind-body-spirit.  The GI illness doesn't define you; take control.
You are a valued person.  I hope you'll seek help.