There is nothing more traumatic then losing your pet, in your case & mine, dogs, in my adult life I have had 2 dogs. both 15 years when I had to put them down. I was with them when they passed & believe that they knew I was there. I know they knew.
I actually was laying on my German Sheppard b/c I coulnd't let go. My heart hurt so bad. My stomach was upset & couldn't stop crying for weeks. For both of my dogs I made a collage(?sp) of all the pictues I could find. I cried & laugh and relived allot of great memories in doing this. Losing your pet is a life altering , tramtic expernice. I was depressed for months but it did get better. Some people get other pets right away. I waited 1 year between dogs. After my 2nd I have not gotten another YET! But I will b/c I know that I always want someone to love me uncontionally , greet me when come home. & lay at my feet or on my bed. Don't beat yourself up on thinking you didn't do everything to help her b/c you did. Unfortunally we out live our pets. There are plenty of homeless dogs that would love to be with you. Give your self time to grieve, lots of it. You"ll make the move when you are ready. Your heart will feel better in time. Hang in their!
LandBray
"She was my best friend. I keep thinking if only I'd taken her on Saturday Then she would still be with me. Sh was loved unconditionally every day of her life."
I'm sure she knew this. That's all anyone can do for their dog: love them unconditionally. It's unlikely one day would have made a difference with how quickly she passed on. You did everything you could once you knew something was wrong and were able to.
It's always hard losing a pet, but that hole does heal. You'll always miss your dog, but you will be able to move on and get over it. It's amazing how they become such a huge part of our lives and our hearts. Remember the good times the two of you had, and rest assured it sounds to me like you did all that you possibly could have for her!