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trying to get pregnant
I am Mitzi. People may remember me when i posted on here a while back. when my son died on a 4 wheeler 1 year 6 months ago. I am trying to get pregnant but i havent have a peroid in like 5 years, i am only 39 years old. i went to doctor and he put me on some medicine which didnt start me back. i am at the point of just giving up on life, Nothing good ever happens for me. I miss my son so much, i know he is in a better place. but with me wonting to have another child some people say i am trying to replace Michael, which will never happen. Michael will always be my son, i will always love him. i just wont another child to bring love and joy in my life till i am with Michael again. i am at the point of just giving up. people that havent lost a child will never understand what you go thru, the pain is so unbearable. its so awful. Yes i still suffer Yes i still cry all the time and Yes i do hurt, but at this point i feel like i have nothing to live for, I also Adopted a child this year . but the lady didnt tell me she was using drugs so the child had alot of medical problems. we were scared we were going to deal with another death so we decited to put her back up for adoption, some people say i am not ready for another child but i am. i feel like the only way i will ever be happy again is to have another child in my life, which i know i will always have the sadness of not having Michael, having a child will not take the sadness and pain away but i feel like i would have a reason to live, i would have a child to raise and take care of. someone to love and care for. i need some addvise, please,
Well first i will never be finshed grieving. i will always grieve over my son. I am Not trying to replace my son. I will always have sadness in my life, my son i raised for 16 years is not here with me. He is in Heaven with Jesus and i have been thru cousling for over a year and grief sessions for over a year, They all fill i am ready to have another child, Yes there is a void of not having Michael and there will always be a void, but Michael would not wont me to live in sadness for the rest of my life, he would wont me to be happy, I do feel i am ready for another child, No one will ever replace my son, Michael will always be my son, He will always have a speical place in my heart, I know when i do have another child its not going to take my pain away but will bring happines and joy to my life, I will always miss my son until i meet Michael again in Heaven, Thank You
I am so sorry. I know that has got to be so hard to lose a child so young. I was blessed to have my son for 16 years but the pain is so awful. Alot of people think i am trying to get pregnant to replace my son but that will NEVER happen. He will always be my son. My son always wonted me to have another child but i told him mom and dad will be able to spoil you more with only you, I pray for you that everything works out for you, My son died April 13th 2008, Yes i still grieve and i always will but i think it will help me improve and have joy to my life , I will be praying for you
My name is Melissa and I have 2 sons in heaven. I lost my son Sloan in July 10th 2007 when I was 6 months pregnant and my son seth 8 months ago on April 10th 2009 when I was 8 months pregnant. I struggle every day... I miss my boys so much. My husband and I are trying again, but it seems like it takes us so long to get pregnant! I get frustrated and sad and angry every month when I get my cycle.
My name is Melissa and I have 2 sons in heaven. I lost my son Sloan in July 10th 2007 when I was 6 months pregnant and my son seth 8 months ago on April 10th 2009 when I was 8 months pregnant. I struggle every day... I miss my boys so much. My husband and I are trying again, but it seems like it takes us so long to get pregnant! I get frustrated and sad and angry every month when I get my cycle.
I know what you are going through. I lost my baby girl, Truely, when she was born 12 years ago. And, you're right, it is the most painful thing a person could go through. I wanted to die for so long afterward, but I had my son who was 7 at the time... so I continued. But, I wanted another baby too. I wanted a little girl. I felt my life would be incomplete without having a girl. And I have tried for years to get pregnant, but it never happened. I am now 44 and have to live with the fact that I will never have that baby girl. I am grieving this now. I have been in therapy for 5 years for loosing the baby, and many other things, so I am learning to grieve, finally, and forgive myself for loosing her. (long story) I also felt that a baby would bring joy back in my life, but my therapist said I should have the joy before I have a baby, so she can come into a happy loving joyful atmosphere, instead of hoping she will create that atmosphere. He's right. I am also beginning to love myself, and find myself, and have a reason to live besides my children. I lived for my son for so long, then barely survived after Truely, and now I am trying to learn to live for myself. I am constantly reminded that True is in heaven, and I will see her there. I hope so. I'm sorry for your loss. After a year and a half, you're still in so much pain. In a few years it will be better, but you'll never get over it fully. If I were you, I would keep trying to have a baby, and relax, if it happens- what a blessing. In the meantime, work on you, and heal yourself, grieve and seek help if you need it. You sound suicidal. I know I was (for years) after I lost the baby. Please take care of yourself. Lisa
I am terribly sorry about what happened to your son. While I have experienced many losses in my lifetime, I would not dare to compare them with the pain a mother must feel at the loss of a child.
But you wrote some things in your post that you should analyze before you seriously consider having another child. Of course you can never replace Michael, and I commend you for recognizing that. But from your post, it seems that you are trying to replace something inside yourself that you lost when Michael died. Honey, believe me, your grieving process is not yet over. Having another baby at this point in time will not change that. It would be unfair to the new baby if you, as an adult, placed your reliance upon him or her to fill the void that Michael left behind. An infant will not come equipped to handle that kind of pressure. Those are some big shoes to fill!
It is your right to have another child, and I believe you absolutely should have another child when the time is right. But before then, I implore you to finish grieving for your angel, Michael. It is still very much his turn. Reach out to your family, friends, and anyone else in your support network. You will need to be emotionally strong for the sake of your new baby, and for your sake as well. Mitzi, realize that you matter, and that your emotional well-being is of paramount importance right now. You have many reasons to live, no matter how bleak things may appear at this time.
When the time is right, your family will be complete again. Let go, and let God. You and Michael will be in my prayers.
But you wrote some things in your post that you should analyze before you seriously consider having another child. Of course you can never replace Michael, and I commend you for recognizing that. But from your post, it seems that you are trying to replace something inside yourself that you lost when Michael died. Honey, believe me, your grieving process is not yet over. Having another baby at this point in time will not change that. It would be unfair to the new baby if you, as an adult, placed your reliance upon him or her to fill the void that Michael left behind. An infant will not come equipped to handle that kind of pressure. Those are some big shoes to fill!
It is your right to have another child, and I believe you absolutely should have another child when the time is right. But before then, I implore you to finish grieving for your angel, Michael. It is still very much his turn. Reach out to your family, friends, and anyone else in your support network. You will need to be emotionally strong for the sake of your new baby, and for your sake as well. Mitzi, realize that you matter, and that your emotional well-being is of paramount importance right now. You have many reasons to live, no matter how bleak things may appear at this time.
When the time is right, your family will be complete again. Let go, and let God. You and Michael will be in my prayers.
Thank You so much, it would be a blessing to have another child in my life. but lack of insurance I dont know, I have tried getting help but no one around this area wonts to help, i may try another place and see what happens. Thank You again and i will look at your photo's
p.s. I just love the photo of Michael who is now your guardian angel. What a handsome young man you have there and never lose hope, because one day in God's time, you will see and be with Michael again.
Hi Mitzi, yes I do remember you and your handsome son. Mitzi, maybe it's stress or early menopause. Michael can never be replace and if you want to have another child, God bless you and go for it. There is so much hope and future for you! Since we spoke last, we loss a baby 4 months after mom...that was 2 yrs. ago. Click on my name and see the new bundle of joy that God sent my family. It was bittersweet to have mom and unborn died months apart and the new baby was born July 21, 2009. A new baby is deserving after what we both have experience and the Lord works in mysterious ways, after 2 years there is now joy in my family with little Caitlyn. She's beautiful.
Mitzi, why don't you go to a specialist and get a second opinion. Yes, you can still have another child, so don't be discourage, go to a specialist and lot's of prayers. Good Luck and God bless, Judy
Mitzi, why don't you go to a specialist and get a second opinion. Yes, you can still have another child, so don't be discourage, go to a specialist and lot's of prayers. Good Luck and God bless, Judy
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