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HIV Anxiety and Risk Assessment
Thank you in advance for taking the time to read my question.
In December 2013 I tested for all STDs including HIV, with my doctor, and was negative. Since that time I have had multiple (close to 20) different interactions at massage parlors in Canada where I received masturbation (hand). I also masturbated the worker with my hand (vagina and breasts). One time the girl used her saliva as lubricant, and all other times they used massage oil.
I have also received condom protected oral sex from massage parlor workers during this time (5 different times to be exact). The condom never broke in any of these occasions. I have never had penetrative sex (vaginal or anal) with a massage parlor girl since my test in 2013.
My mind is constantly riddled with ongoing anxiety and paranoia about this, despite my knowing that these are low risk events. Do I need testing again for anything? My last test was a terribly anxiety inducing event and I'd prefer not to experience it again.
I am married and believe that my anxiety is related to my in-congruent behavior, hypocrisy and guilt. Do you recommend anything for the anxiety, like group forums, etc (other than the obvious stop putting myself in these situations - which I am working on through counseling and meditation)?
Thank you
In December 2013 I tested for all STDs including HIV, with my doctor, and was negative. Since that time I have had multiple (close to 20) different interactions at massage parlors in Canada where I received masturbation (hand). I also masturbated the worker with my hand (vagina and breasts). One time the girl used her saliva as lubricant, and all other times they used massage oil.
I have also received condom protected oral sex from massage parlor workers during this time (5 different times to be exact). The condom never broke in any of these occasions. I have never had penetrative sex (vaginal or anal) with a massage parlor girl since my test in 2013.
My mind is constantly riddled with ongoing anxiety and paranoia about this, despite my knowing that these are low risk events. Do I need testing again for anything? My last test was a terribly anxiety inducing event and I'd prefer not to experience it again.
I am married and believe that my anxiety is related to my in-congruent behavior, hypocrisy and guilt. Do you recommend anything for the anxiety, like group forums, etc (other than the obvious stop putting myself in these situations - which I am working on through counseling and meditation)?
Thank you
Like James nothing you Mentioned has put you at Risk for a HIV Infection. there is Forums on here that can help you deal with your worries though the Anxiety Forum is best.
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