any std,hiv risk?please assess...

[gadgetfreak]

i have depression and anxiety for 5.6 years now and im on regular antidepressants and anti anxiety medicines...i was so so depressed on the night of the 25th of September,I DID IT AGAIN...my friends took me to the club,we had a couple of drinks,i didnot take my meds that night,i met a girl,we went to her apartment,she put a condom on me,gave me oral,then i penetrated her vagina for a couple of minutes,i was drunk,maybe i had anal sex with her too but i have never had anal before,i dont know how it feels, so maybe im assuming things...then i ejaculated inside her,i saw the condom,it seemed intact,my semen was in the tip,nothing was falling on the floor,i looked at the bottom of my penis and the condom their seemed wrinkled and folded in a weird manner,i have no idea what a condom looks like when its broken or it has holes in it,so i am a little worried,and to make matters worse,she called me next day and said to pick her up from work,i went to the place and it was a massage parlour and she was working their as a csw,avonelle you cannot believe i felt like killing myself seriously,i yelled at her,said that you will ruin my life,she cried said that she is clean and something that ontario,canada government gives them licenses or something and they have to get tested every year,i did feel bad for yelling at her.....please assess my exposure,i think i have ocd and anxiety more than depression and anxiety...its been 7,8 days since the exposure i am anxious all day thinking that the condom broke,i think about the ars and 2-4 weeks ,and i get scared that i am going to develop a rash...i have a sore throat,no mucus in nose but light yellow mucus in throat and i have 99-100 farenheit fever...i cannot look at any girl,i get scared and the exposure comes in my mind and the thought of hiv,my parents disowning me,me becoming a shame for my family,not being able to marry,not having kids,dying early....its just getting too much for me,i dont know what to do,i need some reassurance...thanks take care

[gadgetfreak]

thanks

[Teak]

Had the condom failed you would have known. The girl would have not used anything but the proper condom, she is out to protect herself. If you are concerned about being ill see your doctor. It has nothing to do with HIV.

[gadgetfreak]

It has been 8,9 days since this exposure,my sore throat has healed but i have constant fever of 99.5 farenheit,i feel cold and i have fatigue and pain in my body...

[gadgetfreak]

Thanks Teak but what about the condom,i dont know if it was broken or if it was a proper latex condom...

[Teak]

You never had an exposure.

[gadgetfreak]

Buddy i wanted to tell that i dont know what condom she used,i myself use durex but i dont know what condom she used on me that day,like if it was latex or the right one or not etc

[gadgetfreak]

Alright thanks,appreciate it...take care

[NickOne7]

ARS Fever is 101+ and lasts from 1-2 weeks, it does not come and go.

[gadgetfreak]

I know you have said that i had no risk and i would like to believe that but one last question what is the fever like in farenheit in ars?

[NickOne7]

I can understand you anxiety, The odds of HIV infection with infected partner is estimated 1 in 1000. But why take the risk

[gadgetfreak]

Thanks,this message was meant for avonelle as a PM,but she was busy and couldnot reply for a couple of days so i copy pasted it here....
btw what are the odds of hiv for a one time vaginal encounter with one girl like i did in this exposure...again i know the odds for anal sex are pretty high but i used a condom so that makes it safe,and again if i did anal i would have felt it because i have never done anal with any girl before....sorry im very worried these days,my anxiety is getting the better of me