I got my test result and thank god it is negative. Oh my god what a relief I almost fainted. I lost 7kg out of pure worrying.
HIV I & II Antibody + HIV 1 p24 Ag by ECLIA
Negative ( 0.238 )
"....On the 18th of September I had protected vaginal sex and protected oral sex ..."
protected sex is safe. You had no risk
How come are you afraid of hiv ? You had protected sex. This is where you hace to focus on!
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I can't believe I ever put my self at such risk. Never again in my life.
You really need to RELAX! You used a condom vaginal and oral sex, and therefore had ABSOLUTELY NO RISK!. Testing isn't even warranted in this case. Further, CSWs in Dubai are VERY unlikely to be HIV+.
I have managed to calm my self down and I feel so much better. Today I went in for DUO test 4th Gen and I get the result tomorrow afternoon. Pray for me and lets hope for the best.
Sounds like anxiety symptoms yo me ! You said it yourself and the fact you recognized your anxiety should calm your circumstances down. Protected sex is safe sex . Move on!
U had no risk, you dont need a test, you need a therapy. You wouldnt trust your test anyway, because of your anxiety.
Hell, yesterday when I finally convinced myself I am not HIV+ as I was sleeping I dreamt that I was googling symptoms and all my symptoms matched 100% so I woke up from the sleep with extreme nausea and diarrhea.
I just can't stop thinking about HIV and what my parents would do to me if they find out and what I would do to my self.
I am so mentally weak it is shameful.