Almost nothing in life is 100%, so it sounds like you have an anxiety problem more than an HIV problem. What I mean by that is, if you take a test for HIV and it's negative you don't have it. But the way true scientist speak isn't the way the rest of us speak. They almost never speak in absolutes. Take the "risk" of oral sex. Because the virus does exist in the bodily fluids you're dealing with, to science it is theoretically possible for the virus to spread that way. When the virus was new to us, people were told to use condoms even for oral sex. But nobody ever got it that way, so you aren't going to either. It's just never happened. But scientists, again, don't talk that way. So if it's going to take 100% of anything for you to live calmly, does that mean you will never ride in a car? Lots of risk there. Never fly? Never play sports? You see my point. Life is almost never 100%. You can either accept that you're feeling fine and have been told you don't have HIV or you're going to worry yourself forever. If the latter is what's happening, no test will ever be enough. It might be time for therapy at this point, as you've been told by everyone you aren't ill.
It really doesn't matter how many times you ask. Oral sex is not a risk for contracting HIV. As explained to you previously, air and saliva inactivate the virus. So, the only risks for HIV are unprotected vaginal or anal sex or sharing IV drug tests. It's not up to us to convince you that this is the case. The fact that not a single person in 40 years of the history of HIV has ever been proven to have gotten HIV from oral sex should help you move on. You aren't going to be the first person. You are not going to have gotten HIV from oral sex.
Theoretical risk is what you speak of. That means, that in theory, it could be transmitted that way but in practice and reality? It is not. Again, not a single documented, proven case from oral or kissing. So, it doesn't happen.
This is a moderated site that uses expert opinion to guide and oral sex is considered no risk by experts in the field of HIV.