am i insane ?

[disturbed777]

i have read this forum quite throughly and probably an *** for posting but nonetheless .... in December of 2009-Jan 2010 i had protected sex with 4 different girls and once unprotected oral (sex workers) , six weeks elapsed and did a rapid test that was negative , for a couple of weeks now i have been having diarrhea as well as a white coat on my tongue needless to say concern  has set in as well as major major concern subsequent to my negative result i have slept with my wife twice unprotected , i would like to add that i a a heavy smoker almost 2 packs a day , am i bee paranoid or have i right to worry

[Teak]

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[SPABOOKE]

I phoned the helpline-and spoke to a lady councillor.She did say the window period was 3 months-however when i quizzed her about 9 months she said that window periods differe from person to person and the window strenched from 2weeks to possibly 9 months much to my horror-she then ended up saying if i was bothered by this window period issue i must do a DNA PCR-now i know on this forum that term is a swear word.

I was with a friend who got tested by this organisation setting up tents in Gauteng called the Positve Life Project.He tested negative ofcause since he was sexually active only a year ago in the low risk category.However on the certificate they gave him they have a note

"Please note: It is advisable to re-test regularly, even when your last result was non-reactive (Negative), due to a window period when the HIV virus might not be detectable"

This worried me because they say they dont subscribe to a particular time frame.

I went to see my doctour about my furry toung and he gave me more vitamin suppliments-said i must take them for six months.I askedd him about my possible hiv exposure and he was adament that i did not have it.He pointed out that the lab test he gave me also tested for P24.Now ive read about this P24 and quite clearly on this forum it is not fool proof.He also told me that they have discovered that there are people who can test positive and never be sick, careers he said.I am very worried disturbed777 does this guy know what he is talking about?

I am ******** bricks because unlike you i had sex with a black street walker.I would not be too worried about where you got your girls there is a level of professionalism there- risk not as high.

[disturbed777]

President Zuma , damaged the whole HIV/AIDS programme here , the fact that he slept with a positvie girl without protection and then comes  out testing negative , sends a very distorted message to the general population as a whole , president Mbeki having Mrs Zuma with her betroot and garlic remedy also hurt us , but in having saying that I do c that people are getting more informed and the people at the call centre are ok ...  Try them 0800012322

[SPABOOKE]

I wish you well-disturbed i am also worried about a white patch on my toungue-im Swazi but mostly move around in South Africa-like you im worried ofcaurse.The problem is that there is no consistancy anywhere especially with the testing centers-be it New start ,or the clinics , hospitals ,drs.or Positive life-ive personally just about had it with the moving of goal posts with regards windows-i know exactly what you are going through believe me im going through the same thing.The problem down here is bad Mbeki and his denials that HIV causes AIDS, Zuma and his shower sexcapades with hiv positive women i pray that this is just a bad experience that will make us better people in the end.

[alienshadow]

I agree with Lizzie.. You never fuel the fire especially when you really havent had a risk... Smoking surely will cause lots of mouth problems Maybe try quiting you will feel better save money and just pick up a fun habit....Talk with your wife find out whats missing.. do things to spice the relationship back up.. Random trip somewhere.. Get freaky whatever it takes dont damage yourself over all this... I do suggest talking with your wife even though I know that would be a hard thing to do.. Other than that be safe and try to move on..

[disturbed777]

thank you Lizzie , i do feel a whole lot better , i just needed to bounce of someone knowledgeable my concerns and what i am experiencing ... always good to speak to someone who knows ...

[LIZZIE LOU]

great idea ! ! !

[disturbed777]

understood ... time to move on :) , this scenario has crippled me in many ways , it has strained my relationships with those most dear to me , my work , my mental health as well as my physical health , i hardly sleep , i smoke excessively now than i used to , i spend my nights surfing HIV sites instead of spending time with my daughter, this will never ever happen again , i cannot go through this process again

[LIZZIE LOU]

you are reading in to this too deep because you NEVER HAD A RISK.

[disturbed777]

thx for your reply Lizzie , another thing the reason i was prompted in doing a rapid test was the fact that for a week or two again i had chronic diarrhea that went away with the help of a couple of meds .... am i reading into this to deep ?? ... like i said rapid tested negative after 6 weeks . should i let this go and move on with my life ?

[LIZZIE LOU]

first things first...GET OFF HIV SITES ! ! !  all you are doing is adding fuel to the fire of your anxiety.

you are dealing with guilt...NOT hiv.

[disturbed777]

Lizzie , i know , i know :) but you can imagine how paranoia has set in ... it has been haunting me , i have read  what both you and Teak have posted , just that after perusing so many websites i am an emotional wreck ... your recommendation ??? seek psychiatric help ? and not to worry about these symptoms ?

[LIZZIE LOU]

hhhuuummmmm...if you had read this forum thoroughly, as stated, then you would KNOW that nothing that you have described put you at risk for hiv.

you would also KNOW that symptoms of ars come 2-4 weeks after infection...not 6+ weeks.