"You have suffered for 3 years with your ideas." https://
www.medhelp.org/posts/HIV-Prevention/Cold-sore-recurences/show/3063020
It is time to stop your incessant reading about hiv and see a real doctor if you are still convinced there is something wrong with you, instead of continuing to try to be a doctor.
Condoms can break. That is the ONLY risk for HIV - if the condom visibly breaks. Obviously, that did not happen to you, so you were not at risk for HIV.