"I’ve been tested about 7 times for hsv (herpes and everytime it’s negative) so I’m to the point where I am getting certain that it’s not HSV because throughout 1 of 7 test should’ve been negative if I hate it because I went to different clinics (labcorp, quest diagnosis) all came negative been screened by 3 doctors and all didn’t see what looks like herpes."
You've seen 3 doctors and had 7 negative tests. This is not herpes.
Back in August, I suggested that you look for something maybe that you're allergic or sensitive to - https://
www.medhelp.org/posts/Herpes/Is-it-herpes-or-something-else/show/3057664
Have you done that?
What kind of soap are you using? Use a gentle soap, like Dove for sensitive skin, or a non-soap cleanser, and see if that helps. Use only scent and dye free detergents, toilet paper, etc.
Have any of these doctors been dermatologists? If not, that should be your next step.
Also, and I mean this sincerely, could this be a presentation of anxiety? Guilt? Those can present with very real symptoms. I'm not discounting your symptoms, but if they are from anxiety or guilt, you need to treat those in order for it to get better.