I was wondering if you're still here. How are you a year later? I am well... and I hope you are. HSV1 is horrible and nothing at all, at the same time. Depends where you get it, I suppose. I've lived with cold sores my entire life. I guess I'm happy that it offers me almost full immunity from getting HSV1 elsewhere on the body and partial immunity for HSV2 exposure. Have to look at the bright side.
Anyway, when you're not viewing this from a panic/fear prospective, you can think through it rationally. Have a great day.