A couple of weeks ago I posted about a significant Herx/flare-up that can on after some of my best weeks since becoming ill and also after a few weeks pulsing factive, tindamax, and zith.
There were a few time when I thought I was coming out of this stupor, but unfortunately I'm still in the midst of it and not functioning well. My LLMD, with whom I had a phone consult, suggested I stop all abx for a bit. I tried this, and after a full week off of everything I was feeling even worse. Then one morning I woke up and my face was super bright red across my forehead, cheeks, and nose. It stayed that way all day, with folks asking if I had a sunburn. It scared me, as I thought it could be a sign of bacterial activity, so I decided to resume abx.
I've been back on abx for about 4-5 days now, and the last few days I've experienced excruciatingly heavy fatigue. I wake up feeling more tired than when I went to bed and feeling weighted down. My limbs feel very unnaturally heavy, it is disturbing. I also have plenty of paresthesias and burning muscle pain, and have a lot of vivid, violent dreams.
I just want to get back to where I was a month ago! It is emotionally very taxing to have my returned abilities taken away again so suddenly. I'm also coming up on a lot of professional obligations and I'm concerned about not being able to perform adequately to meet them.
I'm going to pause the abx again and hope that this time my symptoms clear up and that I can find my baseline again...Until then, it looks like the pity party is yet again at my place!