I've always struggled with my mental health but due to the fact I have a stable job, people dismiss it. Even professionals. One of the things that I'm currently struggling with is the idea that I'm cursed. I'm not spiritual, I know it's unreal, it's stupid, it's not the truth but I can see the evidence. When I meet someone their lives start getting worse and worse. Specially if they are/were my partner. The most recent three (I've only had 4 partners) were collected, employed and charismatic beings and ended up being either depressed or obsessive jobless lifeless shells. However once I disappear from their lives, they get better. Same with friendships, although I don't get too close to people, not enought to call them friends. Writing about it makes me feel stupid but I want to know if someone else has this issues too and what they do about it. I know it's not real but it still bothers me. It's a pattern and I feel I should just never have s partner or friend.