Not coping after nearly a year my miscarriage happened,is this normal?

[Alison95]

I had a miscarriage on the 17th of July last year,the baby wasn’t planned but it don’t mean I didn’t want it,i was supposed to be 7 weeks and 5 days but I was told my baby had stopped developing at 5weeks and 5 days,it has been a long year full of arguments and tears and I’m at breaking point I just don’t know what to do anymore it’s almost like I resent my partner as he didn’t want the baby and he isn’t willing to try again maybe never my head is all over the place I’m getting no reassurance that it will happen again one day,I think about it all the time my brain never switches off and I hate it I wish I was happy again but no matter how hard I try to be happy it doesn’t work he does try to make me happy by booking holidays etc but I can’t escape it I feel like I’m suffocating. I just don’t think it’s normal or healthy to feel this way for a whole year..