cant cope!

[gemgem1234]

Well i had a misscariage on 19.12.11 and things jus.dont seem to be gettin any easier its was really tough for me and really knocked me down i stopped eatin for 2 weeks and got so weak then im goin in n out of hospital cos im in agony n keep losin tissue i had an ultrasound and internal last week still waitin for my results anyway ive done loads ive wrote poems ive bought memory braclets i had a tattoo i jus cant help think i cida done something i sot up and cry near enuff every night i never leave the house unless i have to i cant talk to my mum cos it jus upsets her i cant talk to my best friend cos shes jus had a baby and to top it off i jus found out my big sis is pregnant i just cant do this anymore i miss my baby and love it more than anything but i need my life bak i need help!!!

[AnnieBrooke]

It won't 'show your family you are weak' if you go for counseling.  Just go.  It will save you from a lot of unnecessary pain and worry.  I felt a lot more normal after talking with the counselor.  Not happy or ignoring that this sad thing had happened, but like a human being again instead of being whipped around at the end of the dog's tail.  

[gemgem1234]

Well when i first lost the baby i was in hospital every 2 days havin bloods done to check that my hormone levels had gone down which they did and i had an internal exam and swabs they said my cervix was closed which was good n nothing came back on the swabs et im still losin tissue the pain is so bad its spread to my back i hope they find something on the scans yes i have heard of.this my doctor said.they should have offered me a D&C cos i was 8weeks but i had to do it natural :( i think your.right i didnt want to admit it i feel so weak and im usually such a strong person goin to counciling and not been able to cope wil jus show my family how weak i am and i dont want that

[AnnieBrooke]

Honey, please see a grief counselor.  I did, in similar circumstances, and it really helped.  She was covered by my HMO, and specialized in fertility issues.  It made a big difference.  It's not like everything was suddenly OK or the bad thing had not happened, but I was not crying all the time any more, and that helped me feel like I was not crazy.  More than likely if you still have some placental tissue, you also still have a big hormone load, and that is what is making you feel so unlike yourself.  Ask the doctor if a D&C is called for.  Good luck!!!!!